01 October 2006
Sunday, October 01, 2006
i'm fine..... (",)thanks
jieting, for your concern... i really appreciate it...
i used to think that i was
strong... able to control my emotions whenever i encountered some problems... able to live as per normal, hiding my feelings, pretending nothing is wrong with me...
but whenever a close friend or family member asked how i was doing, i would just break down...
what a weakling i am...well,
she's back home, safe and sound... we had a short conversation online... where
she poured out what
she has been thinking and feeling all these while... it was a little shocking to hear those thoughts... especially when
she said sometimes she did not want to come home as there would be nothing she could do to fix the problems we are facing... saying that
she did not want to face selfish people in a high tension environment...
i was sad when i heard that... i just continued to tear... sometimes i was a little pissed at
her remarks and the way
she thinks... but what could i do...
she just could not see the situation from another person's view... how many of us would be able to do that when we face problems...
i might not be able to... but i know that running away is not the way to solve it...
i am really fine... just that did not study a single bit today... just spent time surfing the net, watching cable with my family... even did a little manicure... i really wish to speak to someone about the problems i have been feeling all these years... to someone i can really rely on... someone who understands me...
~*candice*~
