23 October 2006
Monday, October 23, 2006
a defense of abortion....pls do not be shocked by the topic above, its just the title of the 21 page essay i have read in order to complete my AS individual assignment which is due on wednesday..... it's written by Judith Jarvis Thomson..... it's a very long and sometimes confusing essay, but nonetheless, it is a very good essay.... i salute you Judith..... great essay..... but i would appreciate it if you could write it in a way that it would be easier to understand.....
well, even though my mid terms are over, i still have a lot more projects to complete.... still got to present my AS presentation on Saturday, BGS project presentation on Monday.... not forgetting my CT project, CAT project as well as Business Law Group Assignment...... *screams* when will all my projects be over?? so that i can relax a little more and not die before the end of the term??
i am so not doing well in SMU, struggling with so many modules..... i really failed my CAT mid term.... told ya.... i got an 8..... and it is over 25!!!! pathethic right?!?! highest in my class was 20, lowest was 2, class average is 10.... u know, i really regretted bidding for CAT this term, i did not realise that it is the type of module that would require you to spend a lot more time than u expected to practise the stuff you learnt in class..... so now i can only pray that my group project would be able to bring up my grade..... will need to put in a lot more effort into it.....
i thought that i would be able to do stats, esp because i am able to do the questons that my prof includes in the lecture slides.... but when it comes to assignments and tests, i become so careless and apply the wrong formulas to my answers, causing my marks to fall greatly...... very sad and demoralizing.... it is not as if i never pay attention in class and don't understand what is going on..... it is just this stupid trait of mine.... to be so careless.... i really must work on it.....
well, i agree that there is no use crying over spilt milk.... all i can and should do now would be to manage my time better, focus more on my work, don't watch so much tv programmes anymore and mug like mad.....
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16 October 2006
Monday, October 16, 2006
now left with bgs mid term and a lot more projects....now i have to finish reading 9 chapters for my bgs mid term test on friday..... i still have a little time but i know i have to finish them asap.... because i also need to read the various articles and think about my model answer for the first question, think about what question prof will set for the video and try to think of how i would answer it... so many things to do....
the haze is just not getting better... as if i at genting everyday.... so hazy, so blur, so stuffy... and it is making me sick......
13 October 2006
Friday, October 13, 2006
i am actually drinking coffee....
in case u didn't know.... i dun drink coffee one.... cause once i drink coffee, i would not be able to sleep... at all... so i have been refraining from drinking coffee.... the nearest thing to coffee i drink is mocha.... and i dun really like it.... but now, to stay awake so that i can study, i am actually drinking coffee.... i actually drank 2 cups of coffee in an hour.... and i will be getting another cup soon.... hopefully i wun get addicted to it....
anyway, my holidays are almost over.... it already friday.... biz law mid term is on monday..... going through all my notes again.... i think i should be able to do the paper... quite confident.... it is not that dry and boring after all...
still have to read 9 chapters for BGS mid term.... then need to see the video as well... read all the 5 articles etc.... not forgeting BGS project.... aiyo.... my to do list just doesn't seem to end... when will they all come to an end?? hopefully i wun not be dead by then....
anyway, i very bo liao.... so wanna post pics of my self manicured nails....
in case u didn't know.... i dun drink coffee one.... cause once i drink coffee, i would not be able to sleep... at all... so i have been refraining from drinking coffee.... the nearest thing to coffee i drink is mocha.... and i dun really like it.... but now, to stay awake so that i can study, i am actually drinking coffee.... i actually drank 2 cups of coffee in an hour.... and i will be getting another cup soon.... hopefully i wun get addicted to it....
anyway, my holidays are almost over.... it already friday.... biz law mid term is on monday..... going through all my notes again.... i think i should be able to do the paper... quite confident.... it is not that dry and boring after all...
still have to read 9 chapters for BGS mid term.... then need to see the video as well... read all the 5 articles etc.... not forgeting BGS project.... aiyo.... my to do list just doesn't seem to end... when will they all come to an end?? hopefully i wun not be dead by then....
anyway, i very bo liao.... so wanna post pics of my self manicured nails....
in case u can't really make out what is on my nails.... it's actually 2 beaded like things attached to my nails.... (dunno what u call them...)one black and one silver....
another pic....
nice a not?? i do myself one.... i not good at painting my nails, so just put clear nail polish and just stuck them there.... not bad right?? but must be very careful... some of them tend to fall off... so cannot help out with housework for sometime.... haha.... excuses.... lol...
i intend to try out new designs i see from the various jap mags i have after all my projects.... hopefully they will turn out nice.... wanna attach the fake nails as well.... so if u guys wanna do nails for free, can ask me ya.... quality not guaranteed la... but foc... hehe... can design and do your own nails as well.... shd be fun.... (",)
09 October 2006
Monday, October 09, 2006
i am supposed to be studying....ya... i am supposed to be studying for my mid terms as well as completing as much assignments i have....
however, i just can't seem to concentrate for a long time.... i tried reading my BGS text, but my concentration level dropped drastically after about 2 chapters.... and i just can't force myself to continue reading... been skipping chapters for the last few hours....
so ya, now, i will be attempting to read my business law.... yesterday was supposed to be my buisness law day, but since there was no class today, i did not bother reading.... bad right... anyway, i must admit, i do find business law rather interesting.... at least i can catch a glimpse of law and how people can actually manipulate, deceive people into believing they will give you something but they are not leagally binded to.... so ya, i will pay much more attention to so called "contracts"...
06 October 2006
Friday, October 06, 2006
my holidays are here...hehe... only 1 week la.... it's not much but at least i won't need to wake up so early next week.... can sleep a little more....
even though it is my break... i will still need to do a lot of studying.... i still got 2 more mid term tests to go through once i start school again... and i still have the numerous assignments and projects i need to hand in....
so ya... it will not really be a holiday week for me... as usual....
anyways... tts all for now... will be having stats mid term later... wish me luck ya...
04 October 2006
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
to the greatest peps i know....jieting, claressa as well as cindy..... thanks for your concern.... really appreciate it... life is getting slightly better for me now... at least that prob is kinda settled....
had a little chat with my little sis a few days back.... i think she read my blog.... it was nice.... we just talked about stuff while we curled each others hair..... and i must say that faye looks very "auntie" with the curls i did on her.... it made her look so much more mature than she already is.... i think that it is better that she stick to her straight hair.... or maybe it is because i did the curls for her... *wondering*
on the other hand, i think i kinda liked how i looked with the curls.... very gentle, big curls at the ends of my hair.... but i really need to thin my hair now... it is getting too thick again.... faye always says that when my pony-tail accidentally wack her, it is VERY PAIN!~!~... i agree... it feels heavy and SOLID!! lol.... so it is about time i cut my hair and make some changes to it.... i think i have been having this straight hair look for years already.... right?? chung cheng peps....
everytime i need to cut my hair, i always say, "maybe i should change my hairstyle" but after a lot of deliberation, i still go with rebonding my hair all over again... coz i feel that it would be easier to manage.... of course i can save time by not spending so much time everyday "ironing" my hair straight.... but it gets quit boring esp after having the same hair style for years....
so.... i am gonna add something new to my wishlist.... PERM HAIR!!! hopefully, it would be like what pui sze say... even more easier to manage.... she say dun even need to comb hair and can go out le...and she always looks good.... also make her look more matured and feminine... i really need to look more matured... so many people say faye looks older than me... so much change image... let people see the "new" candice..... lol.... talking crap here....
pui sze.... what song is that??? i went to youtube to see the video but dun remember hearing it at NHK leh... or were you talking to another candice that you know?? it sounds real nice.... that's the style of m-flo.... just love the way they make the entire song so catchy and stuff.... first time i heard them was when they sang the song "love bug" with boa.... also very nice... the mv also similar way of photography....very cool... btw... i will be working at NHK this sat... so if u, by any chance wanna eat ramen again, can "sun bian" come find me also ya... hehe.... so "xian mu" lisa.... who is now in hokkaido.... while i am mugging in SMU...*sobbs*
01 October 2006
Sunday, October 01, 2006
i'm fine..... (",)thanks jieting, for your concern... i really appreciate it...
i used to think that i was strong... able to control my emotions whenever i encountered some problems... able to live as per normal, hiding my feelings, pretending nothing is wrong with me... but whenever a close friend or family member asked how i was doing, i would just break down... what a weakling i am...
well, she's back home, safe and sound... we had a short conversation online... where she poured out what she has been thinking and feeling all these while... it was a little shocking to hear those thoughts... especially when she said sometimes she did not want to come home as there would be nothing she could do to fix the problems we are facing... saying that she did not want to face selfish people in a high tension environment...
i was sad when i heard that... i just continued to tear... sometimes i was a little pissed at her remarks and the way she thinks... but what could i do... she just could not see the situation from another person's view... how many of us would be able to do that when we face problems... i might not be able to... but i know that running away is not the way to solve it...
i am really fine... just that did not study a single bit today... just spent time surfing the net, watching cable with my family... even did a little manicure... i really wish to speak to someone about the problems i have been feeling all these years... to someone i can really rely on... someone who understands me...