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2010-09-01T20:19:00.002+08:00

Beijing has changed so much since I was last here close to 8 years ago...

Yupyup... I have arrived in Beijing already... :)

Had quite a nice flight... I sat next to this auntie, she was VERY chatty... haha... she kept talking about a lot of things - from China-North Korea ties, the similarities and differences between living in Singapore vs China... She also tell me to get hitched fast... but also to take my time to see "what is available and choose the best one" HAHAHAHA.. very interesting auntie... Chatty she may be but she was very friendly... she also got another uncle to bring my luggage down from the overhead compartment... so sweet lor.. somemore the uncle seems quite old and he had to carry by 8kg luggage down.. seems like he is very fit...

The flight was alright but the time it took me to clear their immigration was close to an hour and a half!!! Yes! that's right, 1 1/2 hours... Luckily I didn't need to go to the toilet then... the queue was CRAZY!!! no proper lines/queues people just forming their own lines and squeezing their way to the front... amazingly, i also managed to stay firm and "stick" close to the person in front of me... it was during this time that I missed Singapore's efficiency...

But enough about that... indeed Beijing seems to have changed a lot since I was last here... I can't say I remember much about my previous trip other than Peking Duck and going to the Great Wall, Forbidden Palace and all... but Beijing seems more organised and like the Taxi uncle said - cleaner...

There's so many things going on in my mind right now... what will I be doing tomorrow, when will I start my internship and how will I fare over here.... so exciting... hehe

well, that's all for now... will post pictures later... didn't take much today because I had to drag my humongous luggage around...

2010-08-23T03:54:00.001+08:00

will i be disappointed by them once again?

the answer is yes...

2010-01-22T03:37:00.002+08:00

the song that captures my heart's messages to her...

this song is by Korean girl group Jewelry... The moment heard this song, it kept playing on and on in my heard... especially the part

"I don't say goodbye, bye
please don't say goodbye, bye
baby i'm so sorry
i love you, i'm so sorry"

and when i went to search for the translation for the song... i felt that the song really captured the feelings i felt towards her... especially the chorus... wishing for her to come back to me, for her to hug me again...

this song is for you mama...

2010-01-22T03:17:00.002+08:00

It has been 3 years....

3 years... can anyone believe it?!? 3 years.....

it has been 3 years since Mama passed away... exactly on this day 3 years ago did my heart become incomplete...

recently, i keep wondering to myself... "have i lived since she left?" *shrugs* i can't seem to find an answer to that question...

ever since she left, life has been rather dull for me.... there was lesser laughter and joy within the family... lesser family time.... lesser contact with my relatives... it was because she was the one who held the entire family together... she was the one who gave so much love, joy and laughter to my life... and without her, it has gotten unbearable...

i still miss her so much...

but people keep telling me to move on... to not think about it... i also want to do that... but it really IS very difficult for me...

2008-10-16T01:53:00.002+08:00

rebirth...

it is now time for me to start updating once again...

do drop by my other blog ok... http://andsocandicesays.blogspot.com

i will still be using this blog now and then... this one has been with me for ages... i have a lot of memories with this one...

my new blog was actually supposed to be a food blog... but i have decided to include anything that i hold dear to me... who knows, you might be mentioned in it... hehe

cheers...

2007-12-14T01:35:00.000+08:00

i recently ended my worst semester in SMU.... hopefully it will be the worst during my entire time in SMU...

i just don't know why... but i just really didn't have the mood to study this semester... i couldn't focus... i have so many other things on my mind... resulting in me missing (and skipping) a lot of classes... and when you don't go for classes in SMU, what happens?? you understand nothing... so that results in the sucky results i got this semester...

Marketing: B+

Intercultural Communication: B

Finishing Touch: B

Management Accounting: C+

Management Science: C

sucky right.... 2 freaking Cs... the worst i have ever done... this is really a wake up call for me... if i want to do well... i will really need to buck up... i may not like what i am studying all the time, but if i put in time and effort, i am sure i can do better...

at least, i did quite well for my Marketing and Intercultural Communications... at least a B... kinda giving me a confirmation that i am going on the right track... i must remember to declare my major next semester...

i am kind of excited for the next sememster to start... because i am going to do a tourism related module.... here is what i will be taking next semester...

World Travel and Tourism (yeappie!!!)

Advertising (yeappie!!!)

Management of People at Work

Finance (someone help me)

will only be doing 4 modules next semester... because i ran out of eDollars... hahaha... World Travel and Tourism and Advertising cost me 40 over dollars each... so i am currently "bankrupt" hahaha...

i hope that i will be able to do well next semester... i must buck up to increase my GPA.... oh ya... i just realised, i managed to increase my GPA this semester by 0.01 hahaha... pathetic right... if i had put in more effort for MA and MS, i could have gotten better grades... regrets, regrets, regrets...

2007-09-30T00:20:00.000+08:00

thanks girl... *hugs*

i just received a very nice and comforting email from one of my primary school pals...

here are parts of her email that really touched me...

"... i do understand what you are going through.. it's really not easy losing somebody close to you.."

"...you never really move on, you just stop thinking abt it.. stay strong and hang in there.."

"...it was like telling me, she made a huge impact in these people's life and she meant someting to them.. it was like celebration of her life where people shared their experiences with her and their memories.."

" ...celebrate your grandma's life.."

"...impact people like how she did with hers.."

"...i'm sure she was a great woman.. live like how she would you know.."

"...so do take care all right.. and you will be ok.. :)"

thank you girl...

thanks for the comforting email.... really appreciate it... *hugs*

thanks for reminding me that she had a good life for the 86 years she lived...

thanks for reminding me that she had a great impact on all she lived with...

thanks for showing me that there is another way for me to remember her...

i will celebrate her life and i will impact people like the way she did from now on...

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next week is mid term test week.... here's the "formula" for what i am supposed to do now...

STUDY M(A + S + arketing)

after which, i will be able to relax for a short while... before i have to focus on all my projects... got MA final project, ICC project, MS Case Assignment 2, Marketing Case Report and Final Project... so many projects...

time seems to be passing very fast... in a blink of an eye, i am half way through my 1st sem... i will be done with FT and will have a 3 day week... weeeee~ *jumps for joy*

well... that's all for now... need to study.... thanks for popping by... (",)

2007-09-24T23:09:00.000+08:00

it's because of the chocolate fondue and the rain...

feeling sick now... having sore throat, feeling very tired and might be having fever... and i think it is because of the chocolate fondue i had with my family last night and the rain that got me drenched in the morning....

my parents bought a chocolate fondue fountain at a steal from cash converter and we decided to try it out.... it was quite fun... waiting for the chocolate buttons to melt, waiting for the melted chocolate to be "pumped" up to the top and then enjoying ourselves with all the fruits.... it is such a sin to indulge in it.... and i got my just deserts.... came down with a bad sore throat.... but that won't deter me from indulging in it once in a while... whahaha.... who can resist chocolate???? i know i can't...

i got drenched on my way to the bus stop today.... it was pouring.... my jeans were like soaking wet and it only dried after my ma class... was practically shaking the entire time... the boring topic today didn't help either... almost fell asleep.... so pia seh lor... somemore next week having mid term test already leh... then fall asleep in class.... oh man... it is time to buck up and mug.... time for the mugger side of candice to come forth...

got a lot of stuff to do... so that's all for today... cheers (",)

2007-09-23T01:50:00.000+08:00

i still miss her...

it has almost been 8 months since she left... but i still remember the last few moments i spent with her vividly... it hurts.... i miss her so much...

reading the various notes i wrote down while i was with her always bring me to tears... i remember the times i spent with her when i was younger, the times when i stayed with her in the hospital, the times where i had to pretend everything was alright, the times when i had to deceive her... the times when i broke down, the times she left...

i thought i was over it, but i was wrong... i haven't cried for a while, mainly because i was trying to focus on my studies, then on my work and then ndp... i guess i didn't really have the time to think... so i "survived"... but earlier this week, during my intercultural communications aka ICC class, one of my classmated decided to do his oral journal written report based on death... it then dawned upon me that she was no longer around.... it was as if my life rewinded right in front of me and played over again...

he asked something along the line of how are funnerals like overseas - as in is it a sad or happy occasion for them... i really wanted to voice my experience but held back as i started to tear...

the thing abut funnerals is that, during the wake, you still have the person's body with you, so you do not really see it that he or she has left... they look as though they are sleeping peacefully... it is only when we left for mandai that i wailed like a baby... because there is nothing left for us to hold on to... we cannot see her anymore other than her pictures, other than in our memories... it was then that i really couldn't take it... she was really leaving us for good...

i did think about writing down all of my thoughts and make it into a book to remember her... so that in future, i can read through the various entries and remind myself of my beloved grandma, about how i felt, about how much i loved her... i think i will do so...

i was talking to jeremiah as i was waiting for my bus... and suddenly we started talking about losing our loved ones.... it was the first time that i talked about this matter... i have always wanted to talk to someone about it; on how fast she left, how she "drfited away" from us... to let it all out... it was very hard.... my eyes started to fill with tears... so i just ended it quickly... to refrain myself from crying in public... then he reminded me that everyone has a time to leave this place, so we have to be strong and move on... thanks jeremiah the little reminder...

so, i will be strong... it doesn't mean that i will forget about... it will just mean that she will still be a part of me even though she is no longer physically around...

i love you mama.... *hugs*

2007-05-13T02:42:00.000+08:00

happy mother's day...

to both my mum and mama...

today is 1 of those days where we are to express our love to our mums, our grandmas.... i personally feel that we can show that we love them everyday... by just giving them a hug, giving them a kiss on their cheeks, by buying the food they love for them... we don't have to buy all sorts of expensive stuff, mums being mums, they will keep saying, "why spend so much??" or like what mama will say,"mai kai lui..." which means why waste money...

today, i miss her a lot, i haven't cried so much in a while, once again as i watched the video made by uncle ning to remember mama, i suddenly remembered that she wasn't physically with us anymore... i just couldn't hold my tears in.... i remembered the times i spent with her... going to my uncle's house to visit her, sit with her in her room as she watches her favourite dramas... laugh, when she comments on how she hates the "evil" sickening woman who would do anything to stick onto the lead actor she likes.... but i can't do all these with her anymore....

as i saw the video, i just can't help but think, why didn't i come into this world earlier... that way, she might be able to see me graduate, i might be able to take my graduation photo with her... i would dedicate my degree to her... for all the hard work she put in bringing my mum up, as well as bringing me up when i was younger.... i couldn' help but think, if i were bigger, if i were working, maybe i could have brought her overseas, buy her loads of gifts so that she can pamper herself and enjoy a good life... but there is nothing i can do...

usually she will be the one giving, so i am grateful in a way that i did manage to buy her somethings when she was still around....

when i first went overseas to australia without my family during the choir trip, i bought her a pack of ginger sweets... it might be something small and inexpensive, but she liked it....

when i got my first paycheck from my attachment at SATS, i bought her packets of biscuits or what we usually call "piah" - something that mama just loves, she said to me "mai kai lui" again... but she was full of smiles....

mama is really the person i adore, admire, respect, love all at once... in order to communicate with her grandchildren, she started speaking to us in chinese, sometimes even in english.... and yet i did not learn how to speak hokkien... she gives and gives, without thinking about asking for anything in return... and yet she had to go so fast, so sudden...

it was through this very unfortunate event that i realised how little i knew about my mama... when she was in hospital, i noticed that she had a mark on her forehead, something that i did not realise throughout the years, i didn't know the kinds of flowers she liked till the funneral as my uncle told me that she loved bright coloured flowers...

regrets
regrets
regrets....
so many regrets...
no more chances to make amends...

so to all out there, treasure all your loved ones... treat them with love and respect, don't do things or do not not do things when you still can... don't follow my footsteps....

to mama:
i am grateful for all the love you have showered upon me over the years, cooking my favourite kailan with prawns, giving me durian that you know i love, thank you very much, you will always be a part of me no matter what... you have made me a stronger person...

to mummy:
i know it has been very hard on you ever since we found out about her condition... but i am glad that you managed to hang on... she may not be with us physically anymore, but i am sure she is always with us... watcing over us.... so there is no need for us to be so sad all the time.... you know that she loves you and she definitely knows that you love her...

life has to move on... it was hard initially, as i had no mood to study... i would practically start crying once i reach home every night.... thinking why is life was so unfair to me... so i had to catch up with my schoolwork after it... i struggled but i still managed to get by... i still managed to increase my gpa... it might still be much lower than i had initially planned earlier this year... but it is getting there... i will do my best as i am going to dedicate my degree to my 1 and only mama....

2007-05-03T19:07:00.000+08:00

just a short post to help publicise an event...

bay ambassadors WANTED!! for this years NDP at Marina Bay...

register at www.bank4u.org

for more enquires, email to bayambassadors@gmail.com or you guys can contact me... please help me pass the message around...

2007-04-26T00:55:00.000+08:00

the best R85 outing ever!~!~!~

yeap... we had the best R85 outing ever.... even though the number of people who turned up was small... we still managed to have a blast with all the games, sand, booze and not forgetting the ultra long emo talk.....

now is the time for pics, pics and more pics....

me and wanying on our "love boat"... hahaha... i still dun understand why the sentosa person want to take photo of the guys instead of us.... right wanying....

me and cindy...

representing the R85 girls are: cindy, me, karene and wanying...

karene and me...

me and wanying...

what wanying calls "operation mermaid" that went wrong... all i can say is that the guys are not good at art... just look that how the tail of the mermaid turn out....

the lovely sunset...

we did a QC check on justin's boat... it passed... it could accommodate 4 people without sinking... hahahaha...

i just love this pic of me... seems like i managed to overturn the boat with someone in it... feeling the sense of accomplishment here... wahaha...

before dinner at sakae.... (",)

dunno where this place is... but the changing lights on the floor is just beautiful...

the girls again....

a grp pic with the orange light....

my favourite picture....

thanks guys for making the outing such a fun one.... (",) we must have another outing b4 our school starts k... (",)

great company + booze + games + singing + dancing + emo talk

AWESOME OUTING!!!

____________________________

i have been relaxing since then... well.. also not totally la.... i still work on fridays and saturdays.... but other than that... i am pretty much not doing anything.... just waiting for cgh to get back to me... but after waiting for so long and judging from the commitments i have for the NDP bay ambassador recruitment thingy, i think i will not work at cgh anymore.... maybe i will work at kino.... (",)

2007-04-17T14:43:00.000+08:00

RULES: Each person who gets tagged needs to write a blog post of their own 6 idiosyncrasies as well as clearly state this rule.after stating your 6 weirdness you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names at the bottom of the entry. dont forget to leave a comment on their tagboards that says “you’re tagged!” and tell them to read your blog for information as to what it means.

btw, idiosyncrasy means:-a characteristic, habit, mannerism, or the like, that is peculiar to an individual.

wa... this one a bit hard leh.... but here goes...

if given a choice, i would prefer to stand.... sitting too much would only make my butt bigger... wahahaha....
whenever i get a missed call, i will always send a sms back to the person, saying "you called?? haha.... i never called back once... hahahahahaha....
i conduct a live mini concert everyday in my toilet while i bathe.... wahahaha...
i love watching my favourite movies over and over again.... highest record is watching a walk to remember at least 6 times...
i love my instant noodles extra soggy... hahaha.... so that i won't have to chew so much.... wahahhaha... lazy candice....
whenever i have a new favourite piece of clothing.... u will see me wearing it over and over again coz i will choose to wear it once it comes back from the laundry.... hehe (",)

wahaha... somethings u guys didn't know about me ya... hahaha.... (",)

i am gonna tag...

glen
ps
claressa
geraldine
karin
winnie

2007-04-14T18:26:00.000+08:00

exams are over... it's time to chill!!!!

wahahaha... finally my exams are over and i will have the time to relax and do watever i want!!! now for the various posts and pics i promised so tt some ppl can "kop" photos.....

let's start with my 21st birthday party!!!!

yeah... here's some pictures to show the main gist my party...

from the pictures i think u can tell that the highlight of my party was actually ppl getting wet!!! haha... thanks to my og for throwing everyone in the pool.... our dear cindy got thrown in a whooping 12 times.... i think double the number of times i got dunked!!!

anyway, i wanna thank my friends who came down for the little party and for the presents i got.....

first would be my primary school classmates....

L to R: glen, terence, jason, yin theng, bao jie and lincoln...

and to add... I DID invite girls to my party ok.... it must becoz of these guys tts why the girls dun wanna turn up la.... wahahaha.... just joking...... i have known most of these guys since primary 1.... thanks for the bag and pillow.... i know it took you guys hours just to look for a present.... appreciate it.....

next would be my secondary school friends....

L to R: our dear holly (who mia-ed for a long while), april, hanxing, pui sze and jieting....

and finally i can see my cheese cake birthday cake....wahaha.... this is the group of girls who share the same passion as me... singing... mainly invited my choir friends and also my sec 1 freinds who wasn't able to make it.... tee weijie turned up for a while but left before i got to take picture with him..... thanks for the perfume, pillow and necklace.....

next up, the group of 4 who represented tp....

L to R: ashraf, mahathir, aaron and geraldine...

i did not realise what they did until i saw the pictures... no wonder i heard people laughing while i took the photo with you guys.... thanks for coming guys... sorry you were the only 4 who came and most of the time were just talking amongst yourselves.... but geraldine! i loved the little bag you made... it's so sweet.. thanks girl... (",) we must meet up soon ok!?!

now for the crazy group.... SMU's R85!!!!!

L to R (back row): say wai, andrew, ck, andy, felix, shun wei, karene, justin
L to R (front row): wan ying, me, cindy, zhi hao

first, i want to say a very big thank you to all of you for coming down as well as for the damn ex present.... sorry i had to change it and it became a much more expensive gift... dun worry... i will be wearing it more often k.... wahahaha... thanks for making my party so fun and erm.. wet, literally..... can 't wait for our sentosa outing next week... we must get say wai wet first ok..... all of us target him first..... wahahaha.....

oh ya.... i just love this pic.... so i am just gonna post it here....

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now would be another april birthday celebration.... my primary school classmate jason's big 21 celebration at new york new york.....

wahaha.... just look at his very cute birthday cake.... "thomas and friends"... thank goodness these group of guys did not choose my birthday cake for me.... *phew* and again.... i am the only girl.... whole time always ganna bullied and suan-ed by someone..... you know who you are.... wahahaha....

all of us showed the kid in us when all of us queued up for cotton candy...

1. glen 2. yang chong (newest addition to the group) 3. lincoln 4. jeremiah 5. yin theng
6. terence 7. jason 8. amos 9. me! (",)

this is one group of friend who will never fail to entertain themselves using their vast imagination...... wahaha.... i think i have gotten kinda immune to all the army talk after going out with them... i just know when to entertain myself and not get bored..... haha....

till we meet again at yin theng's birthday a few weeks time k.... and yes, i will turn up... i am not the kind of person who will not turn up after others have turned up for my birthday ok.....

2007-04-08T01:20:00.000+08:00

almost there...

sorry guys.... there won't be any updates for the time being until my exams are over.... wait 1 week for them k..... (",)

2007-03-18T20:30:00.000+08:00

one day trip to malacca...

or should i say a one day eating trip to malacca... haha.... i kept eating so many things in malacca....

we ate chop chong wah chicken rice ball for lunch, snacked on ondeh ondeh, ate ice cream, ate cheese wedges from kfc, ate durian cendol, the highlight of the trip (for me personally la) "dip dip" not forgetting the largest bao i ever saw... "ye zi mei bao" aka amy yip bao.... wahaha.... u can just imagine the size of it.....

i actually dreamt about "dip dip" last week.... wahaha.... dreaming about food.... but i dunno why leh.... i just dreamt about it, i craved for it.... i remember when i was young and whenever my parents brought me there to eat.... i wasn't able to fully appreciate the taste of it coz it was too spicy for me.... so i had to wash off whatever satay sauce on it before i eat the sticks and sticks of food.... but not anymore.... haha.... i enjoyed it so much that i ate a total of 19 sticks of ingredients that included quails egg, pork, liver, kang kong, wanton, fish ball, prawns etc etc.... wahaha.... but i did not manage to catch up with my sister's bf who ate 35 sticks.... will try again next time..... see whether i can break his record.... wahaha....

it was a fun trip.... as i was the youngest in the group, i had an excuse to "yang oh" my parents and elder sis.... haha... why not make use of the chance right.... if not no other chance le.... esp if faye is around or the 2 piggies at home... haha.... so ya.... i even joked with my sis that i wanted a floating balloon early in the morning at the petro station when i saw some balloons.... she also bought me ring pop so that i could relive my childhood days.... haha.... it's fun to be the youngest in the family.... can get so many things.... hehe...

but the funniest thing was, at night, at the night market along jonker street.... my sis bought me a floating balloon..... wahaha... so be careful for what u wish for ar... i named it tako....

haha... i believe i was the oldest customer of that balloon stall that day or maybe ever... hahaha.... the other customers of the stall were like 1/3 of my height.... made me look like a big baby.... so old still want to play with balloon.... so i had to hold the balloon in the air all the way as we walked through the night market.... we even joked that should anyone of us get lost, just look for tako, and you will find me... haha.... but it was still fun.... how many people can get a floating balloon all the way from malacca only for RM3?? it's very cheap... too bad tako "died" by the time i woke up.... now it just takes up more of my floor space.... hahaha....
anyway, that's all for now... supposed to be studying for calculus test tml.... most likely i will flunk it.... i dun have the mood to do anything related to calculus... no matter how hard i try, i just cannot do well....

2007-03-12T21:06:00.000+08:00

i know it's a little late, but still...

here's some pictures that would sum up how the FTB Exco celebrated our dear j lo's birthday... hahaha... aka the pimp... wonder who gave him this post for exco...

from left to right: andrew, wanying, zhi hao, j lo, me, karene, say wai and not forgetting our dear cindy as the photographer...

left to right: cindy, wanying, zhi hao, j lo, me, karene, say wai and now photographer - andrew

hehe.... yeah... had such a great time eating steamboat at tian tian huo guo with the gang... was really bloated halfway through.... we kept ordering so much food that we had to resort to playing zhong ji mi ma and cai quan to "force" one another to finish up all the food.... and we did!! haha... with the help of hungry felix who came to the rescue later....

me and wanying found a great place to buy practically anything from our childhood games to to dice to practice for IRs... haha.... we are not going to disclose where this shop is.... like what wanying said... we have forged a bond with the uncle there... after he saw through our motive of buying j lo's present.... hahahaha....

cindy putting j lo's present to good use.... hahahahaha.... poor j lo.... tortured by his own b day present.... hahahaha...

oh ya.... *drum rolls* introducing the FTB EXCO aka EL NINO EXCO...

HONORARY BOARD OF DIRECTORS:
Mr. Chen Zhihao (THE XTREMIST)
Mr. Andrew Low ( THE HOT GUY*also dunno why this title*haha)

EXECUTIVE COMMITTEE:
PRESIDENT: Cindy Choo (THE PIG)
VICE-PRESIDENT: Candice Wong (THE NICE LITTLE GAL)
HONOURARY GENERAL SECRETARY: Felix Lua (THE DRUNKEN ANGEL)
FINANCE DIRECTOR: Foo Say Wai (THE MUGGER)
WELFARE CUM EVENTS DIRECTOR: Chua Wan Ying (THE POLE DANCER or BLOW- JOB GAL)

EL-NINO FELLOW : Justin Low (THE PIMP)

wahaha... suddenly i am VP of exco... haha... also dunno why.... lol... anyway, seems like quite a slack role for me... hahaha...

life's now a mad rush at school.... the next few weeks will determine my fate for my 2nd sememster here at SMU.... wish me luck.... need to mug... (",)

2007-02-25T19:50:00.000+08:00

is it wrong to be nice???

ya, that's my question... is it wrong for me to be nice?? why is it that some people get the wrong idea and like "develop" feelings for me even though i treat other people the same way?? are they like so deprived and desperate for love?? the thought of it gives me creeps....

at least 1 of them don't have my contact details and cannot bug me... but one does.... and it is getting very irritating.... keep on calling to ask something and cannot make enquires all at one time.... keep on calling at wierd wierd timing, don't ask whether free a not and start talking like a bullet train.... it can really spoil my day.... at first i didn't really think much of it, but after a while, the smses i receive get a little wierd.... i really hope that this hunch of mine is wrong, then all would be well... freaky man.... i dun feel like answering his calls at all, keep cancelling it and silencing my phone so as not to hear his voice.... call me bad or evil or insensitive, but i just do not want to pick up the calls...

what should i do?? i was so freaked out by the latest sms i got from him that i was so tempted to send him an email to tell him to stop it, but i am afraid that it would like destroy the friendship we have (now is really not the time to do so as he is in 1 of my project group), and then, how to tell him?? i was so tempted to pretend that i have a bf so that he would find another target... any volunteers to be my fake bf?? hahaha...

_______________________________ freaky ____________________________

the term break is over and i practically spent the entire time rotting away... practically just keep eating, sleeping, watching tv, surfing the net... when i was supposed to be catching up on my work... but lost time cannot be regained... i would just have to work harder and catch up...

the new year has been very different, no one at my mother's side had the mood to bai nian at all, we just merely got together on chu er at my dua gu's house for lunch where we just said happy new year to one another... giving hugs to one another to console each other after praying to mama... it was so quiet, so strange, so distant... as i sat on the steps of the stairs, i remember mama woud be seated at 1 of the chairs in front of me, talking to my mum, my aunts, laughing, eating, gossiping about things, but now, they will all be memories that i will have of her...

just now, i read something i wrote while i was with her, watching over her in hospital... i cried again as i felt her pain and suffering, i cried as i remembered my last times i had with her.... the last time i remember most vividly with her while she was in hosipital was on the day that she found out about her illness.... i was seated next to her, holding on to her hand, massaging her hand that was bruised by all the needles.... then, she looked at me, she looked into my eyes, i felt like crying then, but all i could do was to smile sweetly at her, to give her the assurance that all will be well, so that she would fight on... but i had to let go of her soon, one of my uncles came... so i let her hands go... that was the last time she saw my face...

on the thursday of the week she passed on, after lunch with karin, i went to visit her again.... but she couldn't see me anymore, she couldn't see anyone... she could only hear us talk to her.... it was then that i cried right in front of her... by then, i knew all was lost, her condition was deterioting very quickly.... so whenever i could, i would hold her hand, rub it, massage it, rub her legs, put her favourite lotion on them and gave them a nice massage.... that was the only thing that i could do for her.... and that was the last thing i did for her...

almost an entire month has gone by, but everything is still vivid in my head... i will never forget how all of us lost her, i will never forget how all of us loved her....

2007-02-17T00:14:00.000+08:00

it will be a very different new year...

as everyone gets happy during the new year whilst receiving ang paos, eating all the new year goodies and visiting loved ones.... all i will be doing would be remembering the times i had with her... especially during the new year...

usually my new year celebration would start on the eve of the new year, at my dua gu's house, where mama would be preparing the ingredients for the big reunion dinner later... she would also be preparing the hoi sim and chicken rice.... yum yum... over the years, i would try to help out in the kitchen, but most of the time i would end up with the task of washing all the vegetables and sometimes, i would be able to do some cutting... the reunion dinner would be the highlight of the entire new year, as all of us, all my uncles and aunties, all my cousins would try or best to be there... at the "peak", all of us would be able to fill up 5 tables and since there was a lack of steamboat pots, the last table (usually the table i will be at) would end up using a normal pot... haha... i really miss those moments as that was the only time of the year where everyone would have a chance to eat a meal together...

the first day of the new year would usually start with my visit to my dai gu jie as well as ji peh... then would be my visit to my mama's house... from as far as i remember, whenever we reached the place, everyone would have to "take turns" to wish her happy new year... she would be so happy to see all of us in front of her... she would never be tired about the usual boring greetings that we give her... all she wants is for the entire family to be together... everyone would have lunch there... to eat mama's speciality - derh toh teng... (aka pig stomach soup) this is the only time that i would eat something like that, because she cooked it...

now that i have mentioned about her a bit, i don't feel like blogging anymore about the new year... i don't know how it is going to be like esp on sunday where i will be paying my respects to her at guang meng sua....

happy new year guys.... (",)

2007-02-15T02:15:00.000+08:00

my body is not accepting the amount of coffee i am consuming....

just 1 cup of coffee and i start to feel wierd... how to study like this?? i want to stay awake to complete my readings for my TWC paper review but my body does not want to "accept" the coffee i am consuming to keep myself awake... i dun feel like drinking red bull... anyone know of a way where i can stay awake a night so that i can complete my work??

on tuesday, my LTB group went down to Toa Payoh SAC to give our first crime prevention talk in hokkien.... and it was a success!!! yeah... the elderly there were very friendly, very supportive of us, very sweet and nice... so cute also.... and they understood my sub standard hokkien.... hahahaha.... but i still need to spend some time to practice it so that i can get better in speaking hokkien... but one of the things we might need to improve on for the next talk next month is that there were some of them who only understood malay and a little english... they were kinda left out from our talk.... felt kinda bad.... but at least we managed to translate parts of our talk into english and pray that they understood what we said.... then we had agnes from the SAC who acted as our malay translator whenever she was free...

i am also wondering, if the same group of them were to come down for the talk again next month, would they find it boring?? coz we will be going through the same stuff over again... i believe that one reason they would come down again would be so that they can find someone they can talk to and maybe to have a chance to get more lucky draw prizes... hehe... well, who wouldn't want free things right?!?!

well, there is still a lot more readings i need to do to catch up with my TWC class so that i can complete my paper review which is due on friday.... so, that's all for now... tata.... (",)

2007-02-11T14:23:00.000+08:00

in school on sunday?!?! what a sad life i have...

yup... the title says it all... am actually in school on a sunday, waiting for my project meeting to start.... actually wanted to do my homework as i rot the time away in the library, but my mind doesn't want to.... so what do i do?? i blog...

now is like 2.20, but my meeting only starts at 4.... supposed to spend a while buying some new clothes with my mum and sisters at PS, but in the end, didn't manage to find anything nice.... so i walked to school... i was so tempted to just hop onto the cab with my mum and go home with her where my comfy bed lies, but i can't, today's meeting is crucial to the entire project....

Project Golden Years.... or "huang jin nian hua" (pls dun ask me why on earth is the project name so crappy...) is my LTB group's "baby"... to give you an idea what the objective is about... here's our (Skittles') Mission Statement... *drum rolls*

Mission Statement:
To enrich the lives of the elderly at Toa Payoh Moral Seniors Activity Centre
and educate them about Crime Prevention
that will provide them with valuable skills and knowledge for a friendlier and safer neighbourhood environment.

yup, a crime prevention talk... sounds easy right?!?! just need to talk about what to do and what not to do blah blah blah... but it's not easy.... we have to give the talk to the elderly in HOKKIEN!!!!! what's more, none of us can fluently converse in hokkien.... my hokkien ar.... only need 3 words to describe it.... "CANNOT MAKE IT" hahaha.... amongst my family members.... i am the one who is the worst in speaking hokkien.... i can listen, but speaking wise, better that i don't open my mouth otherwise you won't understand a word i am saying or you will just keep laughing your ass off till you have very toned abs with all the stomach exercise... so ya....

i just completed my script with translation done by my mummy.... thank you mummy.... thank you for not giving up on me with all that horrible pronounciation i made last night... and i have to memorise it by tuesday when i will be giving the talk to approximately 60 ah gongs and ah mahs.... practice, practice and more practice is the only things i can do to save myself from humiliation....

new years coming, but it won't be the same.... mama's gone, i totally lost my "new year mood"... nobody bears to step back into lor ah soo for they fear they cannot take it anymore and break down in tears... i want to go there, to go into mama's room, to sit on her bed and remember her... but they say can only go there after new year...

i'm still lagging behind my studeis, but luckily i only have like 2 mid term papers... FA - i am quite confident i will be able to pass this mod... and Comms written assignment - this one is like letter writing, so should be ok la.... but i still got a lot of projects to complete.... usually i will list down whatever i need to do, but this time i don't really know where to start... too many la....

well, enough of blogging... now is time for reading my text.... mugging.... sad sia.... i am becoming a mugger here is SMU...

2007-02-10T00:32:00.000+08:00

all the best in UQ karin...

just came back from airport after sending our dear dear karin off as she embarks on a new journey in life, her uni life in UQ Australia... girl, jia you ok... you can do it... and GET AN ANG MOH BOYFRIEND!~!~!~ hahahahahahahaha.... (",)

being at the airport just now brought back wonderful memories where i did my internship over 1 and a half years ago... where i would be walking to my gate to do my duty, meeting people from all over the world, being of service to them etc.... oh, how much i miss those days... slotting boarding passes into the BGR, saying over and over again, "can i have your passport and boarding pass please", "thank you, have a nice flight" etc... i am very glad that i did my internship at the airport rather than at an events company....

when i was waiting for my bus at the basement, i saw two foreigners, most likely businessmen, judging from their attire and how they present themselves... they seemed a little lost... i didn't know whether i should approach them yet to see whether they needed my help, so i continued to watch them... after a while, they approached me on whether they needed to purchase any tickets before boarding the bus... so i told them that there was no need, just have to pay when they board... they thanked me and that felt great.... that really made me remember my internship days at SATS when i help passengers get around....

when the bus came, i felt a little embarassed, everyone else rushed to the bus, not waiting for our "guests" to get on first even though they were in the queue... *sigh* but what can i do?? something else happened to make me realise that singaporeans are really in a world of their own.... after boarding the bus, the foreigners seemed to not have small change to pay for their ride, they were standing at the entrance for a while, talking to the bus driver... after a while, not a single person went forward to lend a hand to the poor, lost souls who do not know what on earth to do to pay for their ride esp when they do not have change... i just couldn't take it anymore... i checked my wallet... got up, asked them what happened... indeed, they did not have small change... the smallest notes they had were 50 dollars and other currencies.... i asked them how much did the driver say they had to pay and passed them the money.... they were so grateful.... kept on thanking me....

it was then that i realised, i love being in the service industry... nothing motivates me to work in the service industry more than the simple phrase " thank you"... it made me think, "what on earth am i doing? is studying something i really want??" esp studying something like business that has little to do with my interest of serving people... but i have to continue studying so that i don't let my parents down who spend so much money on sending me to SMU.... so i will try to finish my studies asap so that i can go to work in the service line.... i have decided that i will not do marketing as my major... i think i will do HR and corporate comms as my majors....

2007-02-04T23:43:00.000+08:00

it's time for the brand new me to kick in....

once again, thank you to all of my dear friends who sms me now and then to check how i am doing.... i am feeling better now... still sad inside, but i know that life has to go on... i know that that would be what my dear mama would want... she would not want me to sink into depression, neglect my health, neglect my studies, neglect my future because of her... so from tomorrow onwards, i will buck up, catch up with my studies and become a better, stronger me...

i have missed out on quite a number of my lessons, but i am grateful to have understanding professors as well as friends at SMU who understand what i have been going through... guys, i would need your help to catch up with lessons k... esp TWC, i still dun really understand what this subject is about.... this is a bad sign... but i know i can overcome this, with the help of my friends... (",)

my sister kim finally bought a car.... a cute small car... name: chery QQ... haha... cute name also right... lol... she can finally use a P plate and i can start to learn how to drive... hopefully it would not be so hard and complicated.... but i am confident i can do it... haha.... bu yao xiao kan wo... lol

well, it will be a short entry today, dun really want to blog much, need to read up on calculus and ltb for tml's class.... byebye (",)

2007-02-02T01:59:00.000+08:00

i'm starting to forget...

i'm starting to forget how you smell like...
i'm starting to forget how your voice sounds like...
i'm starting to forget how your skin feels like...
i'm starting to forget how your touch feels like...
i'm starting to forget how your hair feels like...

i'm starting to forget...

but i don't want to...

2007-01-31T22:39:00.000+08:00

these were our messages to her...

uncle ning managed to make a video on mama, about her, about her children, about her grandchildren, about how everyone loved her...

the video included pictures of her when she was younger, with her children and us, grnadchildren over the years...

it also included our (her grandchildrens') messages to her...

this was what we said to her...

2007-01-31T22:30:00.000+08:00

2007-01-26T23:50:00.000+08:00

she left...

mama byebye...

i love you...

2007-01-26T11:42:00.000+08:00

all hope is lost...

2007-01-25T00:58:00.000+08:00

this was actually yesterday's entry....

To my dear friends:

Thank you very much for all of your care and concern for me these few days... thank you for asking me, "how are you?", "are you ok?" when you guys see me...

Thank you for telling me that I can call you whenever I need a listening ear or when I need a shoulder to cry my heart out... Thank you for telling me that it is alright to cry because all of you are around... Thank you for telling me to "jia you", to be strong... Thank you...

Thanks for leaving sweet messages on my tag board or sending me smses to take care of myself, that you will pray for my grandmother’s recovery, that you will be a phone call away... Thank you for asking me how is everything at home and at school...

Thank you karin for the care and concern you have given to me through our conversations on msn as well as through the smses we send to one another... Thanks for making me feel better when I was first "hit" with the sudden news...

Thank you cindy, for leaving a short message on my tagboard to tell me that you understand what I am going through... thank you for talking to me about how I need to be strong in order to fight this battle with her... thank you for being with me this afternoon...

Thank you jieting, thank you for leaving me a message on my tagboard, thank you for telling me to take care of myself and that I can call you anytime if I need to talk to someone... thank you girl... *hugs*

Thank you pui sze, thank you for sending me an sms to tell me to take care of myself and leaving a message on my tagboard... i know i can count of you in times of need...

Thank you cherie for the sweet note you passed to me today after class... I was really touched when I read it on my way to the hospital... even my mum was touched by your sweet gesture... thank you girl... I think I might need help with calculus... haha... (",)

Thank you friska for your enquiry about how i was doing on monday... thank you...

Thank you junyi for leaving the longest message on my tagboard... 2 somemore... Thanks for willing to lend me your ears whenever I need them even though we have sort of lost contact over the years... Thank you...

Thank you to the guys from my primary school whom I pang seh-ed on Saturday... thanks for your understanding and for your prayer for my grandmother to get well... I really appreciate it... thanks...

Thank you to all of you who continue to offer me help in any possible way...

I know that I have been moody these days in school and have not been contributing much to the projects at hand... I am trying my best to juggle between my studies, visiting and taking care of my grandmother at the hospital as well as taking care of myself...

I will be strong as my grandmother is still fighting on to survive... now she knows about her health, so we have to tell her that all hope is not lost and that she must fight to survive so that she will not give up...

I am currently taking a break from my duty when I am writing this passage on word... later I would have to stay next to my grandmother, to hold her hand to tell her that I will be with her the entire night till tomorrow morning... to let her feel safe so that she can sleep the whole night through...

The main thing I have to look out for whist I am on duty now is to make sure that she is breathing... according to my cousin-in-law Kelvin who is a doctor, he said that there is very little lung tissue that is unaffected by the cancerous cells, so there is a very high chance that she might just stop breathing anytime... My mum and my cousin actually experienced a time whereby my grandmother stopped breathing for a few seconds... both of them freaked out and was very scared that that would be it, that she would actually leave us... but luckily, she started breathing all over again after my mum called her to wake her...

It has been 3 weeks since she was admitted into SGH and how much more fragile has my grandmother become... she is practically just skin and bone... her eyes are sunken in already, you can actually see the contour of her skull, her bone structure, the pulse on her neck, the excess skin that hangs from her arms, face and legs...

It really hurts me to see how much medication she has to take everyday orally as well as through injections and drips... Every single day, she will have at least 1 plug set into either of her hand... And it is a 3 way plug... This plug is also separate from her morphine one... She has to take so many types of antibiotics everyday, she is on drip everyday because of her very poor appetite... on certain days, she also has to do a blood transfusion because of the amount of blood she coughs out...

I really do hope that the new drug she is taking at the moment will work wonders on her... to extend her life a little longer... if not possible, at least reduce the amount of pain she is going through... Even though she is in pain, she has NEVER, NEVER ONCE SHED A SINGLE TEAR ever since she found out that she has cancer... she always says "she si zhu dia, wa bueh kia, ni nang mai kao" she is so strong... holding on till the end... I must be strong for her as well...

2007-01-16T00:33:00.000+08:00

how am i to continue my life without her...

she is the best mother, the best mother-in-law, the best grandmother one can ever have in the whole world, one who is always ever willing to leave the best things in life to the ones she loved the most, the ones she adored, the ones under her constant love and care... but whenever she is in pain, she would rather suffer all alone without telling a singe soul about the intense pain she is going through for fear that we might be worried for her...

it really pains all of us, all of us who grew up under her care, to see her suffer and get more and more frail and vulnerable as everyday passes by... but we cannot tell her, we can't bear to, how are we supposed to tell her that she has less than 3 months with us? the mere thought of that makes even the strongest man in the family tear, much less me, a girl merely 20 years in age... how are we supposed to tell her? how would she react to the dreadful news that her time has come? will she still hold on and fight for her life for as long as possible even though she knows that she will ultimately leave us all?? or will she just give up on herself and leave to be together with the love of her life in the afterworld?

why must HE take her away from me, from my family, from all of us, the most cruel, the most painful, the most sudden way? what wrong has she done to deserve such punishment? she has lived a most "clean" life, staying away from smoking, drinking and using all her time to pamper everyone she loves... all these years, without fail, she would cook lunch for all her children and grandchildren who come to visit her on sundays... she would make use of the time to see how her grandchild has grown, how her child has been doing, how has life been for them... on normal days, she would just indulge in her favourite activities, cooking for her family, cleaning the house, watching her favourite korean dramas... all simple activities that would do little harm to her health... but now, she has been diagnosed with cancer, 99% of the cells in her lungs have turned cancerous.... this piece of news has come too sudden, practically no symptoms, no family history, no one ever thought that such an end would come to her, that she would have to leave us all this way...

after finding out about the time left i have to spend with her, i feel really hurt and regretful.... i regret not spending more time with her whenever i had the opportunity, i regret forgoing visiting her just because i was tired from my work the previous day, i regret not learning hokkien so that i can speak to her in hokkien, i regret not helping her move around the house for fear that i would injure her, i regret not talking to her more whenever i visited her, i regret not eating the food that she offered me, there is so much things i regret.... but i can't turn back the clock, if i had the ability to control time, i want to go back in time to relive the wonderful moments i had with her and to do whatever i havn't done.... but who can??

i am trying to stay strong for her, for my mum, but it is very hard.... she is the only grandparent i have seen and lived with all my life, i have yet to have the experience of losing a loved one... why must she be the first i have to send off, she is the one i respect and love the most, and yet i have to lose her first... i don't want to... i just cannot accept the fact that she is going to leave us so soon, she will not be able to live pass her next birthday, maybe not even pass the new year... the photo i took with her last year might be the last photo i might ever take with her... the mere thought of it hurts... i would not be able to celebrate her birthday with her, i would not be able to hear her call me "candy", i would not be able to see her smile or to hear her voice once she leaves us... i don't want that to happen.... not now, not ever....

it is hard for all of us to pretend that she will get better in front of her... she is very sensitive, any saddness within us would be picked up by her very fast... so all of us have to pretend to be cheerful, talking to her, spending time with her.... it is very tough to ask her "how is she?" "is she feeling better today?" when we visit her, we see her force a smile to tell us that she is ok, but deep inside our hearts, we know that she is suffering and that she would never get well... sometimes i can do it, i can hold it in, but everytime i see her tear, everytime i see her phlem is full of blood, everytime i see her rub her back of her neck, i cannot take it, i just want to cry and hug her and tell her how much i love her... but i can't.... i have to hold it in.... everytime i see my mum cry, everytime i see my cousin cry, everytime i leave her ward, i would just cry..... she has been a huge part of all our lives ever since we came to this world, but she is going to leave us so suddenly...

i just want to spend all the time i have with her, i dread hearing my mum's phone ring, i dread receiving messages on how her condition has deteriorated, for i fear that there and then, i would never see her again... i also fear a certain phenomenon.... i fear that she would suddenly become very fit one day and just leave us the next day...i cannot concentrate in class, my mind would just wonder, thinking how is she doing, is she feeling slightly better.... i want to take leave from school....

another thing i feel that is hard to do is to hear my parents talk about her funeral arrangements, i can't bear to think about life without her, it really hurts me very badly.... my mum also cannot take it, she would always cry whenever we make our way home, and i would cry along with her too... it really hurts to think about what is about to come, but we cannot escape reality...

my only wish now would be that she would be able to hold on till after the new year, so that we can have one final reunion dinner with her... i also hope that she would not have to suffer so much when she leaves, i hope that when the time comes, she would be able to leave peacefully...

to the best grandma i ever had and loved....

mama, i will always love you and miss you...

to my friends if you are reading this: please bear with me if i am unable to spend time with all of you when i am unable to meet up with you guys, i want to spend whatever time i have left with my grandma with her... please pardon me if i am not myself, please pardon me if i start to tear in front of you, please pardon me for not being a good team member, please pardon me...

2007-01-05T19:37:00.000+08:00

it's friday!!! (",)

feeling quite happy today.... coz it's FRIDAY!!!! wahahaha..... had another short class today....

my 2nd class of 2007, technology and world change aka twc.... i am so blessed to have fraemone in my class.... she is the only 1 i know in the class.... all the other people i never see before one.... maybe got 1 or 2 i find them familiar but still dunno their names or anything about them.....

we had quite a hard time looking for someone else to join our group..... coz each group is only allowed 3 members.... she also did not really know the people in the class.... so we had to find someone who did not have a group at the moment.... luckily we did managed to find someone..... alvin.... thank goodness we "found" him.... otherwise we would have to take a much longer time to find another member....

1 thing i find interesting about twc is the textbook that we are expected to buy..... it is not like the usual textbooks we buy, it is like a storybook like that.... it is entitled Guns, Germs and Steel: A short history of everybody for the last 13,000 years by Jared Diamond.... i find the book quite interesting.... especially Yali's question to Jared Diamond....

"Why is it that you white people developed so much cargo and brought it over to New Guinea, but we black people had little cargo of our own"

it is like no one has ever questioned why the whites are always the superior power, the high and mighty ones, the ones who are deemed to be smarter than the rest, the ones who so called have "the right to rule", "the right to control others" etc... some people argue that it is because of genes and stuff... but is it really true?? i am quite skeptical about this so called argument of theirs..... well, enough of this cheem stuff..... i still have to read 4 chapters of the book before lesson next week.... a whopping 90 over pages to read and digest......

aiya.... i really miss my R85 pals..... so long never see them le.... over a month already.... even though school started, i have yet to meet anyone of them other than ck for like what, 5 seconds, to pass him my AS and BGS text.... haven't seen cindy for a while.... wonder how is she coping now..... also haven't been able to see cherie, friska, daniel and andrew at all..... so used to seeing them almost everyday last sem with all the projects, but now, don't even have a chance to catch a glimpse of them....

tml will be a very very long day for me..... i got calculus make up lesson from 8.30 to 11.45, then work from 12 to 3.30, after that i have to go to jieting's 21st birthday party.... i confirm knock out tomorrow one lor..... thank goodness my sunday is free, no longer my "biz law day" wahahaha..... can sleep longer before i decide what to do.....

2007-01-04T13:29:00.000+08:00

my first day of school...

haha.... sounds as if i primary school kid like that.... haha.... even after setting all the alarms on my phone and clock, i still woke up late..... look at what the late nights the past month did to me.... luckily i was still able to catch the later bus to school.... managed to reach school just in time..... but as usual, still blur blur, so went into the wrong classroom.... went into nsr 2.3 instead of sr2.3... luckily the class haven't started when i realised the mistake with the help of my prof who also went to the wrong class..... hehe... i am not the only one who made the mistake.....

i was supposed to have a 3 hours class today till 11.45, but my prof didn't intend to teach anything today, so he just went through what was expected of us.... the usual housekeeping stuff.... then let us off at 9.30.... i went to school today for just 1 hour of so called lesson..... luckily i didn't take taxi to school.... if not i sure cry one lor..... haha...

2007-01-03T23:18:00.000+08:00

first day of school tml....

yeap yeap yeap.... the title says it all.... school starts all over again.... with comms at 8.30 AM.... but i am lucky this is not the long day like on mondays when i have calculus at 8.30 am and ltb at 3.30 pm... at least i would have time later in the day to do whatever i want.... somehow, it feels like it would be like thurs last sem when i had stats b in the morning.....

wonder what to expect for class tml?? i also dunno anyone who has the same class as me... praying that i would be able to see a few familiar faces so that i would not feel so bored and lonely.... *starts praying*

well, so far, the R85 weekly lunch meetings are still not confirmed yet.... hopefully it will not be on wednesdays and fridays..... coz it is my free days on wednesdays, dun wanna come to school jus to eat with the gang for a while then go off..... also have class on fridays from 12 onwards..... if really sway sway ganna 1 of those days, then i will like kinda drift apart from the group.... and i dun want that to happen.......

oh ya.... i also need to get jieting's b'dae present soon.... her 21st b'dae is actually on sunday, but she having her party this saturday, on the 6th.... now that her 21st b'dae is so near, it really is time for a reality check..... this year, the choir gang will all be 21.... first jieting, then me, then pui sze, then april, then holly (hopefully she will be back by then) then finally claressa..... wa lao..... getting old le..... 21 leh.... supposedly adults according to the law...... cannot be so childish le..... aiya, dun think about it now la.... i still got 3 more months to be a little kid..... wahahahahaha...... then after that won't have much reason to play le...... so must enjoy (",)

need to prepare for classes le.... cya ard..... (",)

2007-01-02T22:02:00.000+08:00

happy new year guys....

yeah.... an entire year has passed again.... and has it been a great one?? i believe so.....

well, in 2006, i had a great class in tp.... my final class in tp.... with a cute looking careperson.... haha... mr dom fung.... haha... a little snapshot of my final class....

my final class in tp.... 3T02

i also finally graduated from tp and obtained the piece of paper that i spent the last 3 years mugging and slogging for.... my diploma in tourism management.... in a way i was happy that it was over, but since the studying was over, it meant that there were lesser chances where i could meet the great pals i had in tp.... people like karin, ryna, yuling, winnie, jessica, sabrina, huiting, kailing, jasmine, tammy, weeleng, huiping, isabel, tricia, charlene, jerlyn, geraldine, aaron, mahathir, ashraf, zhifan, nelson etc... and it was because our course has a small intake, that we could be so close....

the final batch of tourism management students....

after ending a phase of my education life, i thought it would be the END of studying for at least a few years while i earned some money for my uni education and gained some experience... but i was wrong, after the application into NUS and NTU was closed to poly students, my parents encouraged me to continue my education, that meant that either i try for SMU or wait another year before i try to get into NUS and NTU.... i then decided to try for SMU... and i got in!! haha.... and that spelt the beginning of my uni life in SMU....

life in SMU has both been fun and challenging at the same time, i have met people who are fun to be around and fun to work with..... i must say that i was lucky to be allocated into a very fun-loving group for my orientation group.... we can just self entertain ourself and have go crazy with all the stuff we talk about and do all the time.... life in SMU would be much more dull and boring without my R85 peps.... shun wei, ck, andy, zhou zhe, justin, andrew, zhi hao, say wai, wan ying, dorothy, johana, yijia, karene, cindy and felix.... thanks guys for making life in SMU fun for me.... we must set the day for our weekly lunch k.....

R85

u know what, after searching my pics to get a pic to pst of R85, i realised that there isn't one single photo where ALL of us was present, there will always be one person absent on that particular day the picture was taken.... so this is the best one so far, only felix wasn't there.... the other pictures has more and more people being absent..... hey guys, we must take at least 1 nice picture where all of us are present ya.... let's work towards that....

another group of people i have grown relatively close to are the peps in my bgs class.... people within my own group, friska, cherie, daniel and andrew.... thanks for making bgs a fun subject to learn through mcdonald's as well as the glamorous modelling industry... haha.... we must meet up soon ya...

our cutest photo.... haha....

have also gotten to know the other people from the class, people who went to the bgs chalet last year.... (i almost said earlier this month..... haha...) peps like seek fong, clara, hongda, zhi wei, eugene, clara, zul, chun wee, kat, yukina etc.... they are really a fun group to be with.... esp when there is alcohol around.... haha.....

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i also decided that since it was a new year, i decided that i would give my blog a little "face lift"... haha.... make it a little more artsy and matured feel to it.... after all, my 21st bdae is in a few months time.... *hint hint* haha.... hopefully i can organise a nice bdae party where i can invite my ngee ann primary pals, chung cheng pals, tpjc pals, tp pals and smu pals to have lotsa fun..... *starts praying*

well, here goes my first post of the new year.... i will try to post more entries more often this year k..... if i dun, keep bugging me till i do.... haha..... (",)

2006-12-27T00:49:00.000+08:00

when will it stop raining????

yep... it has been raining for days and it is getting so cold.... cold until both my dogs are wearing clothes but still keep shivering whenever they sleep... so xing tong u noe......

sukha wearing his little "body-builder" shirt coz it's a little tight fitting...

suki is also trying to get warmer in his chair...

i actually wanted to go out today to develop some pics and buy some stuff for my room but upon seeing and "feeling" the weather, decided not to... i would freeze and become drenched b4 i go to parkway lor.... so i guess i will have to pray that the weather would be warmer later then i can do a little well deserved retail therapy aka shopping.... *starts praying*

so since i didn't go out, i watched tv, re-watched my arashi concert vcd, finally cleaned up my mess in the room, changed the pics on my board (i think i need a bigger board...)and practically just wasted the rest of the day surfing online..... what a boring life i have.....

here's what the board looks like now.... still quite empty and very small, i haven't even added in pics of suki, more family recent pics, recent primary school gathering pics, pics i have of my friends in tp as well as smu...... want to add in the more recent pics as i feel tt they are slightly more presentable as compared to the old pics of me.... i look so shitty back then... even though i still not so piao liang....maybe i will post pics of how i look like from young to now.... haha.... then u guys can just laugh ur heads off and start having severe stomach pain from all the laughing.... for all u noe, all those laughing might just help u get better looking abs.... hahaha.....

2006-12-07T23:45:00.000+08:00

it's now all about meeting up with friends and relaxing....

yes.... it has been a week where i just have fun with friends to catch up and have meals with them.... sometimes i do a little retail therapy... hehe...

monday and tuesday was my BGS class's chalet at aloha changi.... with my sister's help, we managed to book 1 of the chalets we went to for FTB.... for just 100 bucks, as compared to a whooping 225 bucks if we booked it ourselves... the chalet was fun, managed to become closer to the girls who turned up like seek fong, clara, katherine, joan and hazlin... as well as some of the guys.... one thing i have to say about my class.... there are a lot of GAMBLERS!~!~!~ haha..... so many of them play mahjong and play tong xiao as well leh..... i played a few times and observe the games of others..... but in the end, i see until i cannot tahan..... also becoz we never play money la.... so not much motivation to continue....

i was so bored at one time that me, hazlin and dan went for a walk... however, we did not expect ourselves to walk all the way to changi village for "a little reward" in terms of supper as well as to see ba-poh..... haha..... wa lao saw like at least 5 to 7 of them together, waiting..... but after returning back to the chalet, there was again nothin much to do.... so seek fong wanted to have some nasi lemak and see ba-poh as well, so we went for "round 2".... but this time we saw only a few of them..... we also went to the kelong walk, to have a little pinic and wait for sunrise.... but in the end, all of us too tired and gave up waiting, went back to the chalet to rest in the end......

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yesterday, i finally managed to meet up with geraldine for a while after her work.... actually wanted to have dinner with her but she had to return home for dinner, so we just snacked a bit and went shopping.... also went to take photo stickers..... this time lazy to scan the pics so will just post a pic that we took....

me and geraldine....

this girl never really change over the months... still as sweet and cute.... just that hair much much longer.... hehe..... can't wait to go out with her again.... geraldine, next time we go out with karin k.... will be fun.... hehe.... (",)

on my way home, the moon was so round and bright..... felt that it was very nice, so i took a picture of it..... but cam not the very pro type so might not exactly be able to see the nice round moon....

i'm correct right... cannot really see the moon but the pic clearly shows that the moon was really very bright..... so nice.... hehe... i think i will take up photography as a hobby.... i like to take pictures..... whenever i go holiday, i will just be snapping away non stop....

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today, managed to meet up with my dear dear karin..... i always say i want to meet up with her during school but there was practically no time for me to spare to meet her for meals.... but today, i managed to.... yeah!~!~

one funny thing happned after we came out of orchard MRT, ganna "scouted" by 1 of the companies my group investigated for BGS project, CT.... haha.... the young girl wanted to get my number.... in my mind while she was talking, i was like thingking,

"now then "approach" me, if earlier i will give you my number and go undercover lor.... haha.... then, maybe will get a higher grade for BGS....haha..."

but anyway, her attitude not good la, karin told her nicely that we were rushing for time, but she ignored her and tried once again to get my number.... after that she gave up.... apparently karin also got approached and harrassed by another company we investigated, BHI.... if i had known, i should have interviewed her as well.... but anyways, its over....

went to the cha chan ting at taka for lunch.... where we ate and talked about each other and others.... girl, i will definitely miss you loads when you leave for your studies in queensland..... i am sad and happy for you at the same time.... i am sad that you will be far from singapore, from all of us, but i am also happy for you as i know that you will be doing something you like as compared to just relaxing at home..... you must update your blog more often ya... then if got any nice chinese songs, i will inform you and maybe send you the songs ya.....

since it has been a long time since the both of us went to watch a movie, we went to watch HAPPY FEET!~!~ the movie is so cute.... i just love the baby penguins esp baby momo.... he and his "happy feet" cannot stand still.... cannot sing for nuts.... SO ADORABLE!!!!! the little penguins all look like small furballs moving around..... so tempted to kidnap them and squeeze and hug them non stop.... if they come up with soft toys that look like the penguins in the movie, i will definitely get one...... the songs are also very nice, with all the "medleys" and merging of all time favourites..... everyone must watch HAPPY FEET!!!!!

today was really a eating galore and music shopping day for us.... we went to so many cd shops to look at cds..... both of us were tempted to buy HowL's cd..... the korean singer who sang Perhaps Love for Princess Hours.... but both of us resisted..... wanted to wait till the price of the cd went down... hehe...

coincidentally, we met jasmine and nelson outside wisma while we were making our way to Ichiban Boshi for dinner.... chatted a while together, nelson is so so skinny now, being in the army really makes people slim down, like nelson, glen and mahathir..... like karin said maybe we should enlist into army so that we can slim down.... haha.....

well, i havn't got the pic we took together from karin yet, so will post it another time.....

need to sleep now.... tml will have another long day with ps and jieting.....

2006-12-01T00:54:00.000+08:00

freedom at last.....

yes!! my exams are over... so now is holiday period for me, for one miserable month....

well, with all my free time, i finally managed to do some things that i have been contemplating to do for ages....

today, went to PS sakae sushi for the sushi buffet with friska, cherie and dan... they were at PS since 12 plus after AS paper... they had so much time to spare that they played "supermarket game", the one where they set a price then supposed to select items that would add up to that amount and stuff..... and dan lost to the girls.... haha.....

ate quite a bit at sakae.... we just kept ordering stuff non stop and we just keep joking about the chef in the kitchen cursing and swearing at us coz we keep on ordering stuff and that we always order 1 by 1 somemore.... then when the food comes, it just floods our table.... haha....

after the full meal, we were thinking of watching a movie, but PS didn't have much shows... like 2 out of 6 was like r21 shows and then the rest never hear b4 one... so sad, in the end, we, well me la, went to sasa to buy nail polish so that i can do my manicure....

so after about 3 hours, here is what my nails look like now....

looks ok ba... took so long coz had to shape the fake nails into the correct length and stuff.... aiyo.... y my hand so fat.....

coz of the nails, typing is so diffcult.... so gonna cut it short.... cya...

2006-11-15T11:19:00.000+08:00

personal profile using colorgenics.....

Your mind is never at rest.You are continually striving to influence all those about you. You have some excellent ideas but you persist in trying to persuade others just how great your ideas really are. Maybe you are trying too hard. Take it easy - remember, 'Everything comes to those who wait'.

You are totally dissatisfied with your present situation. Matters are not going right for you and you are seeking a means of escape. Your mental state of mind necessitates that you need to change your thinking patterns. Remember, if one particular modus operandi doesn't seem to work, then try something different.

You are a demanding egocentric and therefore quick to take offence. This attitude makes people feel somewhat inadequate when in your company and so it is no wonder that at times you feel alone and unwanted.

You are trying to prove yourself - not only to yourself but also to everyone around you. There is much that you would like to say and do but the situation warrants self-restraint and that is the last thing that you have on your mind. It would seem that you have an unsatisfied need to ally yourself with others whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to stand out from the crowd. This is subjecting you to considerable stress but you tend to stick to your attitudes despite lack of appreciation. Of course, you are finding the situation uncomfortable and would like nothing better but to break away from it but you don't like the idea of compromise. Your main problem is that you are unable to resolve the situation because you continually postpone making the necessary decisions. You feel that if you make the wrong choice this would lead to such opposition that you would not be able to command the esteem of others. It is essential that those around you are prepared to comply with your wishes.You feel that you need to move on.

You feel that you are not appreciated or valued for what you are and that the time is 'now'. Failure to do so will not afford you the conditions to prove your worth.

i feel that it is kinda cool.... using colours to see your personality.... some parts quite accurate...

to view your personality using colorgenics, go to this website...

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/index.htm

haha.... CAT presentation is over!!!!

2006-11-13T12:53:00.000+08:00

one project and report down....

yes!!!! business law is OVER!!!! well for the project la..... i still got my final exam coming in 2 weeks time.... well, here's my feelings and comments on the module business law.....

overall, i think business law is interesting, makes you realise how some people can make se of the cracks in the law to their advantage.... so when dealing with contracts and ppl, BEWARE!!! hahaha...
my prof, Stephen Bull, is actually very nice.... he gives me the impression that as long as you are willing to learn, he will tell you practically everything he knows about the issue....
during presentations, he would actually ask you questions to make you see how a particular issue can be argued in another way, he makes you think and apply the principles.... not because he wants to find faults in your analysis...
business law is rather taxing in terms of the amount of time you shd put into it by reading the text as well as the cases related to it.... but application is actually quite easy.....

so, even though i keep on complaining about business law, i still like it....

well, thats's all for business law... i still need to focus on CAT project presentation and report due on wed morning.... but tt shd be fine la... i would say that it is actually 95% done.... just need to rehearse as a grp tml and i think we would be fine.... (",)

BGS report is due on friday...... that one.... shd be ok also la... got a few more days.....

next in line would be CT!! haha.... saturday's dance practice was fun... seeing all of us actually struggling with the various steps and looking like robots.... so stiff... then once friska stops dancing, all of us will stop coz we cannot remember all the steps..... but... at least we have made some progress... hahahhaha..... then for CT also have individual paper... *argh* must start thinking about what to write already.....

well, sorry for the long wordy entry.... all the best to those having exams soon ya..... hope we can all go out after that and de-stress b4 the school starts in Jan again..... tata...

2006-11-05T16:09:00.000+08:00

it's time to blog again....

a week has passed and i am still struggling with all the projects and submissions i have..... so now, what's left??

BGS Major Project Final Report due 13 Nov 12 noon
Business Law Group Assignment Report and Presentation also due on 13 Nov
CAT Final Report and Presentation due 15 Nov
CT Group Project (forgot due when but also soon...)
CT Individual Assignment (also due soon)
STATS Final Exam
Analytical Skills Final Exam
Business Law Final Exam

all these will cease to exist at the end of the month... ya, that's right.... end of this month and i will be free.... for 1 month till my school starts next year..... how fast time flies.... i am about to finish 1 term of my studies in SMU.... and after that, i will still have 7 more to go...... *slams head onto the table*

well, my timetable for my next term is out already.... it is also a killer.... with financial accounting, calculus, comms, ltb and tech and world change.... 5 mods..... who in the right mind would want to bid for another module?? i definitely do not want to land myself in deep shit again.... esp after bidding for CAT.... i would be digging my own grave..... again....

here's my timetable.....

Monday: Calculus from 8.30 to 11.45 and LTB from 3.30 to 6.45
Tuesday: Financial Accounting from 3.30 to 6.45
Wednesday: Free day (Even though i know this day will be used up for my projects)
Thursday: Comms from 8.30 to 11.45
Friday: Tech and world change from 12 to 3.15

i must say that this timetable is very similar to the one i am having now.... in terms of timing and number of class..... and mind you, this is the killer block.... the killer block is also actually without calculus and tech and world change.... i am currently taking business law so i cleared 1 mod from the killer block.... but still, not much changes la.... still got 5 mods......

well, i need to get back to my projects and studies.... really dun wanna fail them...... will be so demoralizing......

well well, cya ard guys.... thanks for popping by my blog now and then...... (",)

2006-11-01T00:28:00.000+08:00

how come i managed to meet so many people i did not intend to meet on monday??

i didn't know how come i was so lucky to meet so many people i did not intend to meet.....

early in the morning, when i arrived at the bus stop i alight to get to school, i actually met my cchs(m) choir junior, erly..... ya.... so qiao.... it has been a long time since i saw her.... years already ba.... how should i describe how she look?? well, she looks more matured, still look very fair, oh ya... she got the looks of a teacher..... too bad i was rushing to class, if not can talk more to her.... so, she is the first person i did not expect to meet....

next, after the little dinner at the roof top garden with the guest speaker, i went to the bus stop to take bus..... then while talking to andrew about prof's comments on our project and how we can improve on it, someone called me.... it was ang dao, anthony from rotaract..... well, i didn't realise the guitar shop he worked in was so near SMU.... well, actually did manage to see him quite frequently in SMU since i started studyng there.... also because he helps the guitar club at SMU ba...... so he is no. 2....

then after i got on my bus, after travelling for quite a while, someone sat next to me, kenny, my primary school classmate.... really very qiao leh.... last time i saw him was at the primary school gathering i think about 1 to 2 months back... but still, how come so qiao one......

interesting right... how come my horoscope didn't really predict this happening??

2006-10-23T23:13:00.000+08:00

a defense of abortion....

pls do not be shocked by the topic above, its just the title of the 21 page essay i have read in order to complete my AS individual assignment which is due on wednesday..... it's written by Judith Jarvis Thomson..... it's a very long and sometimes confusing essay, but nonetheless, it is a very good essay.... i salute you Judith..... great essay..... but i would appreciate it if you could write it in a way that it would be easier to understand.....

well, even though my mid terms are over, i still have a lot more projects to complete.... still got to present my AS presentation on Saturday, BGS project presentation on Monday.... not forgetting my CT project, CAT project as well as Business Law Group Assignment...... *screams* when will all my projects be over?? so that i can relax a little more and not die before the end of the term??

i am so not doing well in SMU, struggling with so many modules..... i really failed my CAT mid term.... told ya.... i got an 8..... and it is over 25!!!! pathethic right?!?! highest in my class was 20, lowest was 2, class average is 10.... u know, i really regretted bidding for CAT this term, i did not realise that it is the type of module that would require you to spend a lot more time than u expected to practise the stuff you learnt in class..... so now i can only pray that my group project would be able to bring up my grade..... will need to put in a lot more effort into it.....

i thought that i would be able to do stats, esp because i am able to do the questons that my prof includes in the lecture slides.... but when it comes to assignments and tests, i become so careless and apply the wrong formulas to my answers, causing my marks to fall greatly...... very sad and demoralizing.... it is not as if i never pay attention in class and don't understand what is going on..... it is just this stupid trait of mine.... to be so careless.... i really must work on it.....

well, i agree that there is no use crying over spilt milk.... all i can and should do now would be to manage my time better, focus more on my work, don't watch so much tv programmes anymore and mug like mad.....

You Have Low Self Esteem 48% of the Time

While you sometimes feel good about yourself, you tend to struggle a little with self esteem issues.It's not about changing who you are, it's about accepting your faults. You just need to be less critical and demanding of yourself!

How is Your Self Esteem?

2006-10-16T10:56:00.000+08:00

now left with bgs mid term and a lot more projects....

now i have to finish reading 9 chapters for my bgs mid term test on friday..... i still have a little time but i know i have to finish them asap.... because i also need to read the various articles and think about my model answer for the first question, think about what question prof will set for the video and try to think of how i would answer it... so many things to do....

the haze is just not getting better... as if i at genting everyday.... so hazy, so blur, so stuffy... and it is making me sick......

2006-10-13T00:18:00.000+08:00

i am actually drinking coffee....

in case u didn't know.... i dun drink coffee one.... cause once i drink coffee, i would not be able to sleep... at all... so i have been refraining from drinking coffee.... the nearest thing to coffee i drink is mocha.... and i dun really like it.... but now, to stay awake so that i can study, i am actually drinking coffee.... i actually drank 2 cups of coffee in an hour.... and i will be getting another cup soon.... hopefully i wun get addicted to it....

anyway, my holidays are almost over.... it already friday.... biz law mid term is on monday..... going through all my notes again.... i think i should be able to do the paper... quite confident.... it is not that dry and boring after all...

still have to read 9 chapters for BGS mid term.... then need to see the video as well... read all the 5 articles etc.... not forgeting BGS project.... aiyo.... my to do list just doesn't seem to end... when will they all come to an end?? hopefully i wun not be dead by then....

anyway, i very bo liao.... so wanna post pics of my self manicured nails....

in case u can't really make out what is on my nails.... it's actually 2 beaded like things attached to my nails.... (dunno what u call them...)one black and one silver....

another pic....

nice a not?? i do myself one.... i not good at painting my nails, so just put clear nail polish and just stuck them there.... not bad right?? but must be very careful... some of them tend to fall off... so cannot help out with housework for sometime.... haha.... excuses.... lol...

i intend to try out new designs i see from the various jap mags i have after all my projects.... hopefully they will turn out nice.... wanna attach the fake nails as well.... so if u guys wanna do nails for free, can ask me ya.... quality not guaranteed la... but foc... hehe... can design and do your own nails as well.... shd be fun.... (",)

2006-10-09T22:19:00.000+08:00

i am supposed to be studying....

ya... i am supposed to be studying for my mid terms as well as completing as much assignments i have....

however, i just can't seem to concentrate for a long time.... i tried reading my BGS text, but my concentration level dropped drastically after about 2 chapters.... and i just can't force myself to continue reading... been skipping chapters for the last few hours....

so ya, now, i will be attempting to read my business law.... yesterday was supposed to be my buisness law day, but since there was no class today, i did not bother reading.... bad right... anyway, i must admit, i do find business law rather interesting.... at least i can catch a glimpse of law and how people can actually manipulate, deceive people into believing they will give you something but they are not leagally binded to.... so ya, i will pay much more attention to so called "contracts"...

2006-10-06T12:51:00.000+08:00

my holidays are here...

hehe... only 1 week la.... it's not much but at least i won't need to wake up so early next week.... can sleep a little more....

even though it is my break... i will still need to do a lot of studying.... i still got 2 more mid term tests to go through once i start school again... and i still have the numerous assignments and projects i need to hand in....

so ya... it will not really be a holiday week for me... as usual....

anyways... tts all for now... will be having stats mid term later... wish me luck ya...

2006-10-04T12:21:00.000+08:00

to the greatest peps i know....

jieting, claressa as well as cindy..... thanks for your concern.... really appreciate it... life is getting slightly better for me now... at least that prob is kinda settled....

had a little chat with my little sis a few days back.... i think she read my blog.... it was nice.... we just talked about stuff while we curled each others hair..... and i must say that faye looks very "auntie" with the curls i did on her.... it made her look so much more mature than she already is.... i think that it is better that she stick to her straight hair.... or maybe it is because i did the curls for her... *wondering*

on the other hand, i think i kinda liked how i looked with the curls.... very gentle, big curls at the ends of my hair.... but i really need to thin my hair now... it is getting too thick again.... faye always says that when my pony-tail accidentally wack her, it is VERY PAIN!~!~... i agree... it feels heavy and SOLID!! lol.... so it is about time i cut my hair and make some changes to it.... i think i have been having this straight hair look for years already.... right?? chung cheng peps....

everytime i need to cut my hair, i always say, "maybe i should change my hairstyle" but after a lot of deliberation, i still go with rebonding my hair all over again... coz i feel that it would be easier to manage.... of course i can save time by not spending so much time everyday "ironing" my hair straight.... but it gets quit boring esp after having the same hair style for years....

so.... i am gonna add something new to my wishlist.... PERM HAIR!!! hopefully, it would be like what pui sze say... even more easier to manage.... she say dun even need to comb hair and can go out le...and she always looks good.... also make her look more matured and feminine... i really need to look more matured... so many people say faye looks older than me... so much change image... let people see the "new" candice..... lol.... talking crap here....

pui sze.... what song is that??? i went to youtube to see the video but dun remember hearing it at NHK leh... or were you talking to another candice that you know?? it sounds real nice.... that's the style of m-flo.... just love the way they make the entire song so catchy and stuff.... first time i heard them was when they sang the song "love bug" with boa.... also very nice... the mv also similar way of photography....very cool... btw... i will be working at NHK this sat... so if u, by any chance wanna eat ramen again, can "sun bian" come find me also ya... hehe.... so "xian mu" lisa.... who is now in hokkaido.... while i am mugging in SMU...*sobbs*

2006-10-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

i'm fine..... (",)

thanks jieting, for your concern... i really appreciate it...

i used to think that i was strong... able to control my emotions whenever i encountered some problems... able to live as per normal, hiding my feelings, pretending nothing is wrong with me... but whenever a close friend or family member asked how i was doing, i would just break down... what a weakling i am...

well, she's back home, safe and sound... we had a short conversation online... where she poured out what she has been thinking and feeling all these while... it was a little shocking to hear those thoughts... especially when she said sometimes she did not want to come home as there would be nothing she could do to fix the problems we are facing... saying that she did not want to face selfish people in a high tension environment...

i was sad when i heard that... i just continued to tear... sometimes i was a little pissed at her remarks and the way she thinks... but what could i do... she just could not see the situation from another person's view... how many of us would be able to do that when we face problems... i might not be able to... but i know that running away is not the way to solve it...

i am really fine... just that did not study a single bit today... just spent time surfing the net, watching cable with my family... even did a little manicure... i really wish to speak to someone about the problems i have been feeling all these years... to someone i can really rely on... someone who understands me...

2006-09-29T21:32:00.000+08:00

she didn't come home last night...

it has been hours since i last saw her...
she off-ed her phone...
she did not respond to our numerous calls and sms-es...
mum did not sleep a wink the whole night just to wait for her...
she only sent 2 miserable sms to say that she is fine...
she deleted her friends' contacts from our phones...
her friend said that she left her home to come back...
but she did not...

mum is very worried and concerned...
dad is very upset and angry with her actions...
when will she come back?
when will she stop these irresponsible acts?
when can we stop worrying about her?

2006-09-28T18:58:00.000+08:00

i am very injury-prone today...

i just keep walking into something, banging into something today..... my leg hurts... with all the little cuts and small pieces of skin peeling off..... something is so wrong with me.....

had a relatively fun day today..... started with stats..... this is the not so fun part.... i could understand the class but it was a little dry today then also not much exercises to try out in the beginning, so i almost drifted off to lala land.... and i was actually sitted in the second row!! luckily prof gave a break quite early today..... if not i confirm fall asleep in front of him..... then he will say....

"candice WONG! wake up!"

ya.... he calls me candice wong..... he printed my name "tent" according to my alias... Wong Weiwei, Candice.... i am still not used to someone calling me candice WONG..... people have been calling me candice huang for the past 20 years, then someone calls me candice WONG... it feels really wierd..... i still remember when he first called me, i kinda froze for a second before realising he was calling me... haha... so ci dun right.... lol.... oh ya..... my other prof likes to call me weiwei when he replys to my emails..... even though i sign off as candice..... funny sia.....

anyway, after class, was the weekly lunch gathering with the people from r85..... today got 6 people.... not bad la..... having more and more people meeting for lunch le..... hopefully next week can have a big group as well.... more fun this way.....

one thing i love about r85 is that we can practically talk about every single thing under the sky..... all of us so not pai seh one lor...... we can just talk, listen to one another's stories and comments and just keep laughing non stop..... i guess we were the noisiest group of people at mos burger today..... haha.....

next week i have 2 mid term tests..... CAT on wedesday morning (i really think i might fail this one...) as well as stats on friday at 4..... and above all i am helping lisa work the entire week till 9 plus 10 every night..... so ya.... i will need to start studying and preparing for the tests...... the so called break will not be a break la..... i will still need to study for biz law mid term and BGS mid term test that happens once school starts all over again...... also need to rush the CAT project proposal, AS assignment as well as BGS major project...... so many things to do, so little time.... how i wish time could just stop and i just slowly finish up all my tasks at hand..... but everyone knows that it cannot and will not ever happen....

well, that's all for now, need to take a break before i start mugging.... what a sad life i have.... *sobbing*

2006-09-28T01:36:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!!!!!!

this is my new blog..... did some editing to a layout i got from blogskins, changed the picture, moved the "boxes" or whatever you call it here and there, changed the words...... and wa lah..... does it look nice?? hehe.... (",) so proud of myself.....

in case you guys haven't watched the korean drama Goong aka Princess Hours..... here's short intro to the people in the picture above....

from left:

min hyorin (ex-gf of crown prince), lee shin (aka shin goon, crown prince), shin chaegyung (married to lee shin becoz of arranged marriage but actually falls for him) and finally, lee yul (lee shin's cousin who was the crown prince till his father died in an accident and he had to leave the palace and he likes chaegyung).....

jieting crashed SMU on tuesday.... managed to study together with claressa as well at SESS GSR..... it has been such a long time since we "studied" together..... if i remember correctly, they were then mugging for A levels while i was like slacking, watching them do their maths..... so long ago right?? haha.... anyways, here are some pics.....

our dear jieting and claressa...

me and jieting...

gosh, how much i miss my chung cheng peps... singing during choir practices, singing on our way home via the smelly, dirty canal, making fun of each other..... time passes really fast, now we have known each other for close to 8 years!!!!! did i count wrongly??

need to go sleep le.... now already 1.39 am.... got stats at 8.30am later....

night (",)

2006-09-27T14:39:00.000+08:00

hahaha...

i finally managed to play the songs i want on my blog..... got cheng jiu gan now.... lol...

actually i want to change my blogskin one..... but haven't found something i really really like so far..... so will have to wait.....maybe one day i will design my own blog.....

2006-09-24T21:36:00.000+08:00

i LOVE princess hours.....

i just love it sooooooo much........ intend to ge the dvd.... can't wait for princess hour 2......

here's the link for the mv for mt favourite song from princess hours.... do take a look if u are free ya.....

enjoy....

2006-09-22T00:43:00.000+08:00

perhaps love....

i just wanted to share the lyrics of my newest favourite song......

perhaps love from princess hours ost....

even though i dun understand korean, i almost cried when i heard it..... very very nice... as if can feel the emotions of the singers.....

here goes..... enjoy.....

J & HowL ~ Perhaps Love (Sarang Een Gah Yo)

[translation]
I don’t know when it all started

When my head became dizzy with thoughts of you

These thoughts would often pop up in my mind

I feel anxious as my heart expands towards you

It’s nothing.. it’s just a little thing

Your words are awkward to me

Is it love? If you feel the same way, is it a beginning?

My heart keeps saying it loves you

It screams out for the whole world to hear

Why has it taken so long for me to hear it~?

We’ve finally met.. finally found love

If I wanted to show you how I feel

The only way would be for you to become me
I’m already inside of youJust like you’re inside of me
To each other [to each other]

We may already be too accustomed

Is it love? If you feel the same way, is it a beginning?

My heart keeps saying it loves youIt screams out for the whole world to hear

Why has it taken so long for me to hear it~?

We’ve finally met.. finally found love

When I think about it [when I think about it]

I realize how many moments there were when my heart trembled

I’ll try as harder as I was late in realizing my feelings

I’ll be with you, I’ll only give you fond memories

Please don’t ever leave me again

Even the shortest moments without you make me uneasy

Please stay by me~
I already love you so much (you’re the only one)

2006-09-20T12:33:00.000+08:00

why must the fever come now and not go away??

ok, i have not been feeling well since sunday..... i knew i was going to be sick, but i did not expect it to drag for such a long time..... my appetitie is down, concentrattion level has gone lower than it already was..... it makes me feel really weak....... but still, i have to go to school early in the morning for class.....

i know a lot of people who are sick these few days, claressa hasn't been well, johana too, i believe friska is also coming down with a flu...... everyone is getting sick and passing all the germs around........ so everyone must take care ok, we dun want everyone to fall sick one after another.....

i actually wanted to go straight home after class to sleep and rest, but suddenly got project meeting and consultation with my prof later for CAT (computer as an analysis tool)... so have to wait till 2 before i meet up with my group mates to discuss what are the various things we can do for wendy's friend's company...... hopefully prof will approve what we intend to do....

today's CAT class was quite ok, i am getting used to the functions that we use, but i still need more time to digest the information given before i can come up with the various answers..... i really need to buck up, my mid term test is in 2 weeks time and i am still a little blur and slow as compared to my other classmates.....

BGS is going quite well, our TA, louisa gave us the thumbs up for our proposal, just that we have to come up with another grey issue as 2 of the 3 we brought up could be discussed together..... so ya... we have settled that part.... now would be to start gathering information from AMIP, models as well as talent scouts so that we can do our investigation and make sure that these issues do or do not exist........

well, that's all the blogging i will do for today...... need to focus on work now......

btw....

HAPPY WEDDING ANNIVERSARY MUMMY & DADDY!~!~!~

2006-09-17T12:58:00.000+08:00

i was reading one of my choir senior's blog and saw this....

try reading this ya....

Brain test, From Cambridge University

Olny srmat poelpe can raed tihs.

cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm.

Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!if you can raed tihs psas it on !!

2006-09-17T12:14:00.000+08:00

i ganna trick again.....

once again, i was the only girl at the so called gathering...... rui yee was supposed to come, but couldn't make it last minute...... so i was stuck with about 8 guys at vila'ge at heeren for over 2 hours..... where 70% of the time, they were talking about NS!!!! ok la..... once in a while they tried to talk about other subjects.... but some way or another, it will still go back to army life......

even so, i thank the guys for explaining some army stuff to me when i am totally clueless about NS...... also thanks for telling me all those funny and sometimes shocking stories and experiences that you guys have had........ (",) next time, whenever they say have gathering, the first question i will ask would be..... "girls, who confirm going??"

according to the guys, last time it used to be rui yee who was the only girl who would turn up for the gatherings..... but now, i take over the role le...... this happened 2 out of the 3 recent gatherings i went to...... let's see if i will be the only girl for the next gathering, which will most likely be end of the year......

i was thinking, i am still in contact with my primary school friends..... with all these gatherings being organised once in a while...... and all of us are still able to talk and talk and talk non stop for hours, about life during primary school, after primary school as well as what to expect after NS (for the guys la...)

but in terms of my secondary school classmates..... i must say that i am not as close to them as compared to my primary school friends..... the only people i am close to from secondary school are my choir pals..... and i have never been in the same class as them b4...... it is just that all of us had the same passion for singing..... i remember, during sec 4, during recess time, i hardly eat with my classmates, i would always go to jieting's class and talk with her and claressa, then puisze and holly would usually make their way there as well.....

for poly friends.... i am still close to them.... mainly becoz almost all of us have been in the same class b4, we know each other relatively well.... friends like karin, ryna, winnie, yuling, jessica, kailing, huiting, sabrina, charlene, wanying, huiping, tricia, isabel, zahira etc...... so once in a while, i would try to meet them and chat with them on msn..... to see what have they been up to and how are they doing...... i believe we will stay in contact for a long long while after all the projects we have gone through together.........

feeling terrible now..... but dun think i would be able to rest much.... coz i need to read up on my biz law materials...... sian ar.... i have become a mugger...... and it is only the 4th week of school...... but still SMU ROCKS!~!~!~ becoz of the great people i have met there.......

2006-09-16T13:56:00.000+08:00

hehe....

nothing to do la.... then jieting sent me the pics we took on thursday.... so decided to post them.....

the chung cheng peps..... btw.... where is kuan rui and gim keng????

one final pic.... b4 we went for prata and milo dinosaur......

2006-09-15T19:19:00.000+08:00

it's the end of week 4....

time passes very quickly..... i have started uni for 4 weeks already..... and the amount of work is indeed piling up as each day passes by....

talking about how time passes very quickly......yesterday, we sent our dear dear reuben off to amsterdam where he would be furthering his studies...... the first time he came to chung cheng to take over ms lim was like in 2001!!!! which was like 5 years ago..... so long right..... i must say, reuben is more like a friend than a conductor..... we have never, i repeat NEVER, called him, MR LAI...... because of reuben leaving, we had an opportunity to meet up with the chung cheng gang..... peps like pui sze, jieting, april, zhiyong, gim keng, kuan rui, a few of our juniors..... xue fang and met new friend shan... (sorry if i spell his name wrongly) jieting, i want the pictures we took yesterday..... (",)

we also have made plans on going back to chung cheng one fine day, to see our dear dear choir, see who is the new conductor and how much chung cheng has changed.... i think it is unlikely for me to see my teachers, coz from what i heard, most of them retired and some of them left..... i think the only 1 who might still be teaching there is wu lao shi...... wa... also very long never see her le......

tml, i am gonna have a primary school gathering.... wahaha.... can't wait to see glen and lincoln, with their stylish hairstyles gone..... lol......*evil grin* hopefully there would be a lot more of us this time, esp girls, otherwise the guys will just keep talking about NS and i will probably be bored to death......and hope they won't start asking me "so candice, how are you??" like they did during the last 2 gatherings......

come to think about it, i believe that, so far, i am the only one from our class to be studying in SMU..... just like when i was the only one who went to chung cheng..... when i was in tpjc, got lincoln and terence.....at least in tp have shi neng la..... but also never meet him lor..... tml sure will keep on saying "xiang dang nian....." but too bad la.... i will need to leave relatively early..... i will be staying over at my grandma's place tml night... so not nice to reach there so late at night......

well, that's all for now, i still got a lot more things to do.... so will end my entry here.....

dear ps..... thanks for your concern and help when i approached you.....

2006-09-13T23:55:00.000+08:00

i am so un-proud of myself....

i spent close to 3 hours trying to solve a few stats questions..... so long right..... i just kept skipping to the next question then to the next..... then after that, i keep on going through the notes and ppt slides, seeing what rules and formulas would be appropriate....

and when i finally managed to solve it, i was so happy!~!~!~lol.... like small kid like that..... so happy all because i finally managed to solve my question.....

it's gonna be another long day for me tml..... gonna start my day with stats early in the morning..... hopefully i wun fall asleep.... maybe i shd start packing toothpicks into my bag..... it might come in handy becoz of my 3 8.30 classes.....

so tml, is class fr 8.30 to 11.45, short stats meeting after that, lunch with r85 peps, BGS meeting from 3.30 onwards and finally sending reuben off...... so many things to do.... luckily friday got no class, even though i know i will still go to school, will need to photocopy biz law case studies and maybe go for the business major talks..... tml have marketing..... *yeah*

i was like telling my mum a while ago, ever since i started uni, i will start feeling tired from 12 plus onwards.... which is like now...... just feel so sleepy and just wanna continue sleeping non-stop..... well, time for my beauty sleep.....

oyasuminasai!~!~ ja ne!~!~

2006-09-12T20:19:00.000+08:00

dun feel like doing homework now.... so decided to blog a bit....

i've been tagged!

Currents
Current Mood: sian
Current Taste: craving for a little ice cream... hehe...
Current Clothes: pink tank and my very old cchs(m) pe shorts.... hehe
Current Desktop: pic of the best group in FTB run 3 *drum roll* R85!~!~
Current Toenail Color: none....
Current Time: 8.22pm
Current Surroundings: dinning table in hall
Current Annoyances: nothing... both my dogs very quiet now.... lol
Current Thoughts: have to do CAT homework....

Firsts
First Best Friends: Amanda Lee.... knew her since kindergarden.... which is like donkey years ago....
First Crush: dun think have lor.... even if have, also dun tell u..... hehe
First Movie: who can remember lor??
First Lie: *scratches head* also cannot remember...
First Music: shd be "abcdefghjklmnopqrstuvwxyz"

Lasts
Last Cigarette: mi dun smoke!!
Last Drink: brain juice aka H20
Last Car Ride: taxi ba....
Last Crush: shhhhhh....
Last Movie: also quite long time ago leh....
Last Phone Call: call faye to ask her about the company that approaced her to be model
Last CD played: Hirai Ken: Gaining Through Losing
Last song played: Kiss of Life by Hirai Ken.... just love this song...

Have you ever?
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: nope...
Have you ever broken the law: shhhhhh.....
Have you ever been arrested: i so guai one.... of course no la.... hehe...(",)
Have you ever skinny-dipped: nope.... might one day....
Have you ever been on TV: dun think so....
Have you ever kissed someone you don't know:nope...

5 things you are wearing: tank top, shorts, hair clip, hair band, contacts....
4 things you done today: gone for AS lecture, met wanying, changed blog design, blogged....
3 things you can hear right now: doncha by PCD, fan blowing, hongkong serial parents watching..
2 things you can't live without: family and friends....
1 thing u do when you're bored:yawn....

the following peps.... pls copy the qns above and do it k....
1. PS
2. Claressa
3. Karin
4.Winnie
5. Cindy

2006-09-11T22:59:00.000+08:00

what a day, what a bad day....... why so sway one?????

i actually spent the last 10 over minutes typing out my entry..... then when i press "submit", they say " the blog cannot be found".... wa lao..... i wanna cry lor....... type so much and then all gone lor.....

really not in the mood to type all over again.....

i think i type another time la...... very very tired..... sorry ya.....

edit: just realised that my entry was submitted..... *phew* so ya.... do take a look ya... (",)

2006-09-11T22:38:00.000+08:00

i must say, today was the first time i ever saw so so so so many police officers on the roads of singapore..... it was practically like in between every stop from esplanade bus stop onwards, will have 4 police officers walking lor..... even near my school also have leh..... they just walking around.... just imagine la.... how many people are actually called back for reservist just for enforcing the security for the IMF thing.... people to patrol the roads around suntec, people to do spotchecks on people's bags etc..... who else is left to "protect" us??(not that i really care la....)

forgive me for talking nonsence.... had a long day..... kinda started on a bad note..... woke up early..... but because of my "dong zuo man"(yes ps.... it happened again and i feel that this is a valid reason...) i went to the bus stop a few minutes later than i wanted to.... the bus took very long to come.... and when it did, had to pay cash coz the entire system was down..... end up the poor drive had to say the same sentence over and over again....

"sorry hor.... ji qi huai, pls pay cash hor"

then coz people have to dig and dig into their purses for coins..... the bus always stayed at the bus stop for a much longer time..... i was almost late for biz law lor.... i arrived about 2 minutes b4 class started.....

i almost fell asleep during biz law today leh..... i do not find that my prof is boring.... he is rather funny, however, today just felt like dozing off, eyes like always want to close, but i will try my best to keep it open..... almost had to resort to using toothpicks just to keep them open.... maybe coz the issues a bit too serious for my taste or maybe coz i nvr sleep enough ba..... hopefully i wun fall asleep next time..... the assignment looks like it's gonna be tough..... so must gambatte ne!~!~

now that my minor project is over, my group had to start on our major project..... regarding unethical practises of businesses in a particular industry...... we actually wanted to do on spa one...... but bernice's group, who was before us for consultation with louisa, decided to do spa..... so we show our "li rang jing shen" and let them do..... then we decided to do on modelling agencies..... so if u know anyone in the modelling industry who might have fallen pray to the so called "modelling agencies", do let me know, i need to gather certain information from them... dun worry, will not expose the personal information to others if u dun wan.....

2006-09-05T23:09:00.000+08:00

third week of school.....

yesterday, i just did my FIRST SMU presentation....... ya.... third week of school and i had to do presentation for my minor project for BGS...... SMU not so slack after all ya....

anyway, i am now sick of McDonald's.... no offence... it's not the food or what.... just that i have been doing so much research on McDonald's that kinda sick of it..... will be staying away from it for a while....... hehe....

just now cindy told me that she overheard my prof talking to another prof..... saying that her class got one group presentation was very good..... and it was on McDonald's also.... so she think it might be group coz we fit the criteria in terms of timing and topic..... was prof talking about our group??

well, i think we did ok la..... a lot of information to present, too little time.... actually only 20 mins + 5 mins q&a.... but our presenatation itself took 23 mins plus.... so did not have q&a session.... so prof said that it could have been more engaging lor.... other than that i quite happy with our performance..... i just love the videos we showed..... one is done by ME!~!~!~ haha.... just one short one.... 1 min 09 secs to be exact on the case for introduction.... then we also managed to "save" the baby swing ad.... (actually the group wanted to cut it one.... coz we overshot the time....) and the McDonald's 123 ad fr japan..... maybe i shd put the youtube link here next time... then u guys can see..... very cute one.... children very cute.... teacher also cute......

this term my timetable is relatively slack la.... here's my "schedule"....

monday: Business Law(Biz Law) 8.30 to 11.45am then Business, Government and Society (BGS) from 3.30 to 6.45pm....

tuesday: Analytical Skills (AS) 12 to 1.30pm....

wednesday: Computer as an Analysis Tool (CAT) from 8.30 to 11.45am then in oct, Creative Thinking 3.30 to 6.45pm

thursday: Stats 8.30 to 11.45 am....

friday: FREE!~!~!~!~

so if any of u guys free on friday and got nothing to do... call me k..... i will be very free.... hehe(",)

haha..... all because school preassign me Biz Law and i itchy hand go bid for another class, now i have 3 8.30am classes..... but nevermind la.... i still got a lot of free time on tues, thurs and fri.... so ya.... i shd be able to cope la.... *praying*

i just spent the last few hours doing an assignment for CAT..... and guess what, tml is actually my FIRST lesson, coz i just managed to get it on monday.... so ya, first lesson and assignment 1 due.... luckily i was able to do it with the help of my excel book that we had to buy in tp..... then later i also need to get the required text from school also..... aiyo.... have to buy so many books......

2006-08-22T17:37:00.000+08:00

introducing the craziest group in SMU FTB wave 3.........

El Nino..... R85....

ok la... we dun look so crazy here la.... kinda serious hor.....

anyways, here are more pictures of the greatest group ever...... R85!!!!!!

all hail shun wei the mighty emperor... lol.... (note: the guys are "tai jian"s while the gals are supposedly secretly admiring him..... lol......)

our group after the game leaky barrel...... all wet, full of sand and lots and lots of seaweed.....

super heros......

we are indeed one crazy bunch of people..... always in a world of our own enjoying ourselves and being ever ready to do our one and only cheer.... lol..... i am still still waiting for our cheer video leh shun wei.....

after seeing the group dressed so casually, next is some pix of us, crazy R85 in formal wear......

R85 gals... (except for yijia who was unable to go for convocation becoz she had fever...)

haha.... the R85 guys..... thanks for being so sporting as to "act cute" whenever we gals requested......

2006-06-04T16:29:00.000+08:00

went out with some of my pri school frens yesterday..... for a mini gathering as well as to "celebrate" lincoln and glen's final few days of so called freedoom b4 they go in NS...... wa.... i feel so luck to be a girl man..... lol....

well.... only 12 of us turned up lor..... few of the girls couldn't make it lor..... amanda is in melbourne.... lydia, sabrina, ree yi and chloe couldn't make it.... lost contact with the other girls also lor..... but come to think of it.... i just realised that 6/1 really dun haf a lot of girls lor.....

ok, let me try to remember...

pei yi
sabrina
li qing (was she in 6/1?? i can't seem to remeber... shd be la....)
lydia
juliana
me
hwee yee
grace
chloe
nurlina
ree yi
amanda
michelle

that's all i can recall lor..... aiyo.....so little girls lor..... but at least i had pei yi, grace and michelle with me..... if not confirm very very boring lor.... with the guys keep on talking about ns stuff, games n girls......

talking bout girls..... that MUST BE the reason why they decided to eat at hooters lor.... but service there not so good la.... always cannot get any of the waitresses to clear the plates and even to collect money....... they too busy la.... so many ppl go there to eat and see the za bor there...... food was ok..... noe very value for money if u were to ask me.....

well here's a pic to remember the night.....

top row (L to R): indra, lincoln, yin theng, terence and jie sheng
bottom row (L to R): me, pei yi, michelle, shi neng, jeremiah, glen and grace

can't believe it, i have known most of these guys since 1993!!!! it has been about 13 years...... kinda feeling a little old now man.......

well.... all us have grown up le.... guys are in NS, some about to ORD le... while the girls are going to continue our studies in uni.......

2006-05-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

oh my....

i didn't realise that i have not updated my blog for close to 2 whole months....... paiseh paiseh.....

well, i am now working in beach road...... as a temp telemarketer..... ya..... kinda regret my decision in taking up the job.... thr agency somemore.. so cannot just any how quit..... if not i have to pay the agency...... so ya.... i have to tahan all the way till 31st july.......

working as a telemarketer really make me sympathize those telemarketers...... at least my job not so bad.... at least i am not actually selling anything.... so i do not have any sales target.... but other telemarketers might have it.... even though i am not selling anything to anyone, i still encounter several very rude ppl.... it's like they can be so hostile and it kinda feels like some sort of personal attack...... but we are just doing our job..... so if any telemarketer who talks to you nicely and asks you some questions..... (like me.... lol) do take the time to help answer those questions as long as they are not too personal ok......

anyway..... time for some good news...... i got into SMU!!!!! haha..... i was kinda giving up hope.... esp after hearing some ppl who have scored much better than me getting rejected by SMU and how hard it has become to get into any course in SMU..... but lucky me, i finally didn't ruin my interview...... thank goodness.......

ya, anyway..... mi gonna watch tv le..... da chang jin.... hehe..... one of the few shoes i get to see and enjoy seeing....... so cya.... (",)

2006-03-27T00:04:00.000+08:00

mi managed to go to NATAS fair today with pui sze...... haha.... it really reminds me of my days in tp where went to NATAS fair to do some "future project research"..... (but none of them came to use)

lots of people were just giving out all their brochures to everyone they see, trying to get them to sign up for some packages...... it really was an interesting sight.... someone passed out a brochure to PS, i told her to get it..... then after that, everyone just started piling numerous brochures onto her hands..... one person practically threw the brochure onto the pile from the other side of the queue.... and all this actually happened before we even bought the admission tickets..... luckily we managed to get a big plastic bag to store our stuff..... courtesy from ST Travel..... (hehe.... helping them do promotion.......)

ya..... was actually walking around then i saw Mandy..... with Universal..... she looked good..... seems like she likes working there..... she was talking to a group of ladies.... so just waved hi to her and walked off..... glad that she remembered me.....

ya.... so the both of us were looking for cheap flights to hongkong and maybe some free and easy tours.... but all we saw were just packaged tours...... then 5d one got shenzhen..... my main focus for the upcoming trip is mainly shopping, eating, having fun in hongkong itself..... also dunno what is nice to see in shenzhen.....

in the end, both of us took quite a bit of brochures from the Japan booths...... well, actually i think PS took slightly more than me...... hehe...... with all these brochures in our hands, we have come up with another trip..... but this trip would only be done after 3 years..... haha..... you guessed it..... it is a trip to JAPAN!!!!!! haha...... we really think very far ahead ya.... planning what kind of accommodation to stay in, what to eat and stuff..... for a trip that will only be finalised after 3 years...... lol.....

after that, i went to meet my 2 sisters for shooping and makan..... we went to chinatown, plaza sing than to great world..... mi elder sister bought us a lot of things, even treat us to Thai Express... because she got bonus.... her students did very well for their "O"s.... hehe..... now got new clothes..... and also got a long list of items that i want to buy.....

but now, main focus would be saving up for hongkong trip, passing my SMU interview on saturday and having a great time with PS and JT in hongkong......

2006-03-24T16:12:00.000+08:00

i just received a call from SMU... i am shortlisted for an interview on April Fool's day at 11.30am..... *argh*.... i really hope that it will go well..... cause i know that i do not do very well for interviews......... *praying*

i also hope that i can go to NATAS fair on sat or sun.... i wanna get some information on flights and some f&e packages to hongkong.... so that i can plan my trip.....

i still remember going to the NATAS fair the past few times with my coursemates.... i remember us taking whatever brochure we can get our hands on and carrying numerous bags that would seem to give way any moment..... we could actually set up a consultant agency..... providing advice on all the various destinations.... lol.....

well ya.... that was the past.... now i am going in as a potential customer to the TAs.... not as a student eager to grab as much information as possible for future projects....i just remembered.... i did not really use any of the brochures for my projects.... the only things i used were some nice pictures for my CDS assignment.... colour and composition...... lol.... funny sia...

oh ya..... i just read andrea's blog a while ago and was very happy to hear the UWS actually used one of our proposals....

"I'm proud to say that I saw one of our CPM proposals being implemented! (The key chain cum photograph booth). -pats all CPM mates on the back-"

hehe.... maybe one day i will go down to take a look..... (",)

2006-03-22T12:59:00.000+08:00

hehe....

i actually came up with a list of places i would like to visit for my upcoming hongkong trip...

Giant Buddha & Po Lin Monastery
The Peak
Ocean Park
King Wah Centre
Ladies Market
Temple Street
Waterfront Promenade, Avenue of Stars
apm
Lam Gui Fang
Festival Walk

hehe..... PS.... can go to these places a not??

2006-03-20T20:02:00.000+08:00

so what's next?? i really don't know....

but at least this is what i intend to do:

go to hong kong with jie ting and pui sze (hopefully in may)
find a part time job upon returning
be able to get into SMU (must settle the application process first)

aiya..... so sian one lor... really nothing much to do...... whole day just slack, watch tv, surf net.... such a waste of my time......

jieting, pui sze and cla.... wanna go out anytime soon?? it has been a while since we saw one another.... will you guys be free within this or next week?? message me ok.....

2006-03-20T00:52:00.000+08:00

haha.... since i am thinking of furthering my studies.... i did this quiz...

You scored as Sociology. You should be a Sociology major!

Sociology

92%

Dance

75%

Chemistry

75%

Mathematics

67%

Philosophy

67%

Theater

67%

Journalism

67%

Linguistics

67%

Engineering

67%

Anthropology

58%

Psychology

58%

Art

58%

Biology

50%

English

33%

What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)
created with QuizFarm.com

did i make the right choice??

i hope so.....

2006-03-17T14:44:00.000+08:00

hehe.... quiz time....

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Shy

When a guy gets to know you, he finds a great catchProblem is... you're too shy for most guys to get to know.From meeting someone to dating, you usually have your guard up.And while you're just holding back, it makes you seem like you've got something to hide.

Why Don't You Have a Boyfriend?

Your Perfume is Glow

Fresh, sexy, and clean.
You're real, intimate, and exciting.
Your lush sensuality appeals to men...
And you're as sexy as Jennifer Lopez.
Power scents: Orange flower, grapefruit, and citrus.

What Perfume Are You?

You Are A Total Shopaholic!

You have a keen eye for spotting trends before they are hotAnd sometimes your credit rating takes a beating as a resultConsider a job in retail to subsidize your gorgeous outfitsOver time, you could become a famous stylist or designer!

Are You a Shopaholic?

opps......

2006-03-16T20:13:00.000+08:00

i changed the skin of my blog again....

was getting kinda sick of it being so sweet and stuff.... wanted to try something different....

so i went to blogskins and found this..... i edited the layout though.... so that i can add in the video player.....

now kinda addicted to the song "push the button" by sugababes..... so ya.... enjoy it before i change it to another video....

do check out this website....

http://www.youtube.com

you would be able to look for a lot of videos.....

2006-03-15T19:37:00.000+08:00

hey guys....

just wanna let you guys know about some items my god sister is selling on ebay and yahoo....

mainly selling clothes, some bags and love stories..... all reasonably priced.... do take a look ya....

here are the links....

http://www.ebay.com.sg/listResults?browse=0&SellerId=mycybertiger

http://www.ebay.com.sg/listResults?browse=0&SellerId=katsng

http://user.auctions.shopping.yahoo.com/sg/user/emilyng69?

2006-03-15T15:54:00.000+08:00

i am becoming a couch potato and a big fat pig...... *screams*

ya.... i guess you can guess how i spend my days... eat, sleep, play, watch tv.... so boring right....

anyway, just a quick update.... i actually wanted to work to earn some money for my further studies.... but mi mum and dad adviced me not to break the momentum.... it would be better if i had a degree then look for a job.... what they say is right.... in singapore, paper qualification is still very important.... so ya.... i went to look for information about the various unis....

but then.... both NTU and NUS already closed their application to poly grads..... so ya... if i want to study there... i would need to wait for a year.... which means i would still have to look for a job for the time being..... BUT both NUS and NTU so far away.... travelling there would be so troublesome.....

here got another BUT.... i was kinda interested in the Business course NTU is offering cause it has tourism and hospitality management specialisation.... it would be something i am interested in......

then the course offered by SMU is 4 years.... but really nothing much to do with tourism..... another + point for SMU is that is nearer to my house then compared to the other 2 unis.... all i have to do is take either 36 or 14.... then in less than an hour.... i would be able to reach.... my parents keep telling me to take SMU because of the convenience..... dun have to spend so much money on getting there, no need to stay in hostel.... still can eat at home.....

i was so "fan" yesterday lor.... part of me wanted to do the NTU course.... then it's like SMU so near..... so "fan"..... in the end it took me so long to go through what i would be getting into if i were to go to NTU, NUS and SMU.... after reading through everything, i realised that the so called tourism course offered by NTU isn't that interesting after all..... it sounds as if i did some of their modules n they are not what i wanna do.... got something like introduction to HTM, economics of tourism (like what is that??) , electronic distribution (like e biz??), facility management and design, revenue management, services operations management..... not forgetting the usual stuff like accounting, stats, ob etc.....

anyway, i really wanna thank my best friends PS and Jieting for their advice and support... thanks guys.... for telling me to follow my heart and that you guys will support the decision that i make....

and so.... finally, i have decided to apply for SMU....Bachelor of Business Management.... apparently, it is a 4 year direct honours programme.... so ya... bye bye holiday and hello to text books (if i manage to get a place in SMU) for 4 years..... which means i will be 24 by the time i finish studying.... *screams*

2006-02-24T22:22:00.000+08:00

FREE AT LAST!~!~!~!~!

haha.... my final paper at temasek poly is finally over.... hopefully it will be my last paper......

2006-02-13T18:15:00.000+08:00

i have no mood to study so i did some quizzes....

You Are The Fool

You are a fascinating person who is way beyond the concerns of this world.Young at heart, you are blissfully unaware of any dangers ahead.You are a true wanderer - it has be difficult finding your place in this world.Full of confidence, you are likely to take a leap of faith.
Your fortune:
You are about to embark on a new phase in your life.This may mean changing locations, jobs, friends, or love status.You are open about what the future will bring, and free of worry.You have made your peace with fate, and you're ready to start down your new path.

What Tarot Card Are You?

2006-02-13T16:59:00.000+08:00

hehe.... how's my new blog???? nice right.....

i just wanted a change in my blog.... was getting a little bored of it.... so went to blogskins n fell in love with this one.... so sweet, so cute.....

also did another quiz....

You Are Rain

You can be warm and sexy. Or cold and unwelcoming.
Either way, you slowly bring out the beauty around you.

You are best known for: your touch
Your dominant state: changing

What Type of Weather Are You?

2006-02-08T22:38:00.000+08:00

i have fallen in love with this song.... thanks to ryna n karin.... (",)

enjoy....

Don’t Love You No More (I’m Sorry) By Craig David

For all the years that I've known you baby I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold (didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out So why you giving me the cold shoulder now Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl (tell me)
Ok I know I was late again I made you mad and then it's throwing the pan But why are you making this drag on so long (i wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly games (silly games)
Don't figure that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[Chorus]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[Verse 2]
I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone (I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you inner state (inner state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[Repeat Chorus]

[Bridge]
Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.

[Repeat Chorus X 2]

2006-02-08T00:58:00.000+08:00

oh man.....

it has been such a long time since i blogged.....

i have been so busy with all my school projects and stuff that i did not even have the time to flip my big desk calendar.... it is usually burried under huge piles of books and other junk most of the time also..... i finally managed to pull the entire calendar from all my junk.....

so now, it is time for me to do a very very long entry starting with what i have done for the past month.....

1st jan to 3rd jan:
well.... after a night's rest, mi family had a little chalet at changi..... so ya... first day had bbq.... thanks to karin, geraldine and aaron for coming......

second day nothing much la.... coz i had to work fr 12 noon to 5 pm.... so most of my day was spend at work..... ya.... but anyways....i had a good dinner with my family.... DIM SUM!!!!! haha..... (to "bu" for the time i didn't manage to eat while i was in hong kong....)

maybe i will try to get my elder sis to book another chalet for the htm gang so tt we can just chill after the exams..... right karin?!?!? hehe.... (",)

4th jan:
cpm interim submission

6th jan:
survey at underwater world at 11am.... then rushed back to school to do spss..... i remembered staying in school till very late.....

7th jan:
JIE TING'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!
haha.... ya... we went out to celebrate one of mi best friend's birthday...... went to eat at marche.... yum yum yum.... just love the food there..... after all the crapping, all the "xiang dang nian" as well as all the singing.... we went to april's house to watch a movie.... "40 year old virgin"...... such a funny n a little stupid show la.... was basically laughing throughout the entire show.... esp the waxing part..... it is a must watch scene.... hehe.....

11th jan:
HT Seminar Semester Paper due.... Topic: A study on how Full Service Airlines are staying competitive since the introduction of Low Cost Carriers in Singapore..... how did i do?? got a B+.... not bad la...... hehe.... quite proud of myself..... its a 2000 word essay u noe.....

12th jan:
TDP meeting at 11am.....

16th jan:
TDP final report due at 5pm

18th jan:
HT Seminar Portfolio due......

23rd jan:
CPM report submission, 5pm

25th jan:
1. CPM interview with ms jackie ong
2. E-Business project interview

26th jan:
TDP presentation at 8.45 am..... it was a very fun n interesting presentation..... so fun......

27th jan:
E-Business project submission
NAPFA Test from 3pm onwards.... FYI... i failed it... hehe... wad u expect... it has been such a long time since i exercised lor....

29th jan to 31st jan(lunar new year):
ang pow collecting days as well as studying and completing assignments....

1st feb:
CPM portfolio submission
E-Business oral assestment.... i feel that i did not do very well.... dun ask....

****2nd feb:
CPM project presentation to 5 people from Underwater World...... i feel that it went really well... the question and answer session was more like a feedback session..... *phew*

ya.... this was wad i did..... a lot right.......

2005-12-31T06:28:00.000+08:00

it is actually 6.28 am on the last day of 2005......

i can't fall asleep even though i am feeling tired..... just dunno y...... i finally managed to complete the lit review on the marketing book after so many days.... at least i cleared something..... now main focus would be completing my ht seminar sem paper..... i didn't realise that there would be an interview on it until geraldine told me earlier..... oh my..... really hope i do well..... i am doing on the airline industry and my tutor was from SQ lor..... hopefully he won't be so harsh on me.... *praying*

my family just subscribed to scv recently..... and the whole family is like addicted to it lor..... keep on seeing CSI on axn.... the interesting programmes on discovery..... mtv...... hbo and many more...... i am becoming like a couch potato..... *screams* getting fatter and fatter everyday....... these few days i just keep eating, sleeping and watching tv lor...... i am so gonna get FAT!!!!!!! must jian fei......

oh ya..... i just received a letter reminding me to sign up for NATFA....... oh man.... so sian..... one of the reasons i decided to go to poly is bcoz dun need to take..... but then now..... it is compulsory...... oh man...... must start training again...... so long never exercise lor...... i still remember i just cannot do well in my standing board jump...... always just make it one lor..... the rest is ok one..... only tt item.... always kills me one......

hehe..... got another dream phone..... hehehehehehe..... it is 3g one..... by samsung..... z500

got another pic of it......

nice right..... hehehehe..... i still got a very soft spot for flip phones la..... (",) i intend to get it ard chinese new year.... can use ang pow money..... but quite ex la.... ard 400 with 2 yr plan...... s must save up first.... dun wanna be broke after buying it......

2005-12-16T00:04:00.000+08:00

this was actually my entry on thursday..... but didn't post..... too tired i guess....

i am officially half dead......

ya.... i am so dead tired..... been surviving on barely 4-5 hours of sleep for the past few days.... doing projects, assignments and many more.....

luckily i managed to complete my edu paper on tuesday, giving me slightly more time to prepare for my tdp interim report, issues presentation and my cds assignment.... however, i still do not have enough time..... been very tired, very sleepy, stoning all the time...... i almost didn't go for my cds today..... wanted to be a bad ger n pon to come home earlier to sleep.... but decided against it last minute....coz i know if i miss the lesson, i would not know what to do for my upcoming assignment..... didn't really regret it la.... tutor forgot to tell us to bring paint n stuff so there was pretty much nothing to do but to listen to her talk about art and what we must do..... there was a period whereby i almost fell asleep.... but managed to keep myself awake......

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at least now i have slightly more time to do my stuff, e.g. SLEEP...... lol..... actually this week is mid sem test week..... but since i got no papers.... it is my self proclaimed holiday week as well..... but so much for a holiday la.....still got a lot of things to do lor..... the list just never ends lor..... wanna noe what i still need to do??

e business online quiz (gonna do the quiz with karin in school tml)
e business also have PBL
HT Sem semester paper
HT Sem portfolio
TDP Final report
CPM interim report
CPM final report
CPM portfolio
Colour and Compo Assignment 1

i really wish i can complete as much as possible before school starts again..... i actually intend to finish with my HT Sem stuff, as well as my Co and Co Assignment hopefully by middle next week......... then i will have more time for my group projects lor....

oh ya.... wed i will be going down to sentosa to carry out the survey.... will be meeting at 10 in the morning..... dunno how long we will take to get 100 survey forms completed..... then thursday also have to go to school to use SPSS to analyse the data.... hopefully at least one of us will remember how to use it.......

well..... tts all for now..... need to sleep soon..... tml also working fr 6 to 10......

2005-12-08T21:36:00.000+08:00

yeah!!!!!!

i finally uploaded my macau n hongkong pics up le..... can go n take a look..... (",)

http://photobucket.com/albums/y272/sweetcandice/

some of the pics a bit bo liao hor..... dun laugh ok...... some of the pics also taken from charlene n ms chia......

2005-12-06T21:55:00.000+08:00

i am practically dying......HELP ME!!!!!! *screams at top of voice*

i have so many things to do..... here is just a bit....

tm dev grp proj
tm dev issues presentation abt IRs
edu trip reflection
HT Sem paper
HT Sem portfolio
CPM project
CPM portfolio
Co & Co exercises (i have to do a total of 2 by thursday)
and the list goes on and on and on.....

i just finally managed to transfer all the photos i took in macau n hk...... in my folder got over 300 pics taken..... it took me so long to tranfer cause i had to infra all my pics 1 by 1..... so troublesome.... maybe i shd get a card reader or maybe the USB cable.... it would be more convenient this way....

i feel like crying..... one project is not going so well for me.... this week my grp made an appointment..... but they did not realise that i have my cds during tt time..... actually i thought i could crash another class.... but thing is the time avaliable is during one of my other subject..... it would be troublesome to change it..... now another prob.... my cds tutor replied to me saying tt there is no more classes i can crash anymore.... so i have to go for this week's class or else i would not have done 40% of my work..... so i informed my group mate.... after a while, i get a phone call, she asks whether i can skip my cds and go for the appointment..... i told her i can't..... the tone she used when talking to me is as if it was my fault for not wanting to go for the appointment.... saying stuff like it's rude not to turn up on the first meeting and stuff... it's like hello..... who was the one who agreed to the timing without consulting the rest?? i did not tell u straight away that i cannot go u noe..... i said i would try to work something out with my tutor.... but there is nothing that can be done.....

can anyone please help me???????????

2005-12-01T17:39:00.000+08:00

i am back from macau and hongkong..... *weeeeee* lol.....

bad thing is that the trip is way too short la.....only 1 miserable day in hongkong..... so short..... even though we managed to go to ocean park for the behind the scenes tour, we did not even get to sit any rides at all.... not even the cable car.... *sulking*

but well..... now planning for a shopping and dim sum trip to hongkong..... hehe.... this time, i must eat dim sum.... i must do a lot of shopping..... so will be trying to save up.....

even if it is a short trip, i did manage to take a lot of pictures.... so stay tuned to see where i post them ya..... but will not be so soon la..... these few weeks will be very busy with projects......

PS..... i managed to buy something 4 u..... it is a challenge u know.... after all u are from hongkong...... hope u will like it..... when will there be a outing ar? i want to go!!!!!! lol.....(",)

2005-11-14T22:44:00.000+08:00

so so so so so busy.......

it is only the second week of school but projects have started moving at full force...... so many datelines to meet lor...... this morning just submitted one project..... mini proposal..... then tomorrow have to submit another one during tutorial..... then friday also have to submit another proposal...... when will the projects ever end??????? *screams*

still got so many things to do and buy lor..... need to buy pencils, drawing block etc for my colour and composition...... then have to do so many portfolios...... sian ar......... second week of school and starting to get so hectic le........

never mind..... macau and hong kong trip is on the coming tuesday..... just over a week left..... packing is like 1/2 done...... still need to put in a lot more stuff..... hopefully when come back, i won't have any excess baggage...... *praying*

oh ya..... i saw a korean show on tv last night..... didn't catch the title of the show..... quite sad lor..... its a love story...... its regarding this guy, who just came back from america to study in seoul.... on the subway, he saw this girl, he got attracted to her becoz she very straightforward very pretty also..... so qiao she was the president of a club he joined..... they became good friends..... when he confessed his love for her, she rejected him.... (coz of age diff and maybe coz she know her best friend like him...) he tried forgetting her but couldn't.....

one year passed and she graduated fr uni.... after tt, he went to army and they never contacted each other.... she carried with her life and got married some time later but her husband and parents met with an accident and died..... she barely survived.....

after finishing his army, he became a producer at a radio station, he made his own programme that reads letters from the "public" but they are actually reading his letters to her.... she does not know about it...... it was only after being told by her client to listen to the programme because of work that she realised it..... she replied to the station, rejecting him once again..... but this time, he did not give up, he bought all her fav. yougurt from the shops near her house and placed them outside her house with a teddy bear and roses..... he waited for her in the cold weather.... she decided to give him a chance.....

they got married and live happily...... soon after, she gets pregnant..... both of them are so happy..... however, she did not tell him one thing..... she actually contracted stomach cancer and does not have much time left...... she did not want to abort her baby..... her best friend ( who is now her gynae) finds out about her sickness.... she begged her friend not to tell her husband..... her friend reluctantly agreed but dropped hints to her friend's husband...... that day, at the radio station, they are reading out a letter regarding a pregnant woman who has contracted cancer but is keeping it from her husband, she talks about the pain that she is going through as she can no longer stand the cologne smell she used to love her husband using.... it was only then that he realised that she is the one who wrote the letter..... he was devastated.....

with the help of the gynae, they brought her to her favourite places for a holiday, he stayed with her every second of the day looking out for her..... it was at the holiday house that her condition worsened..... at the house, she made a book for her unborn child, telling her child how much she loved her..... she also told her child to look after her father and to tell everything and everyone she sees "I love you"........but that day came......she was sent back to the hospital for a cisarian (sorry, dunno how to spell) when her condition was very unstable..... they managed to get the baby out..... but after looking at her newborn child and husband, she left........

a few years have passed.... her daughter and husband are sitting at the swing she used to sit at..... her daughter says "I love you daddy" and "I love you mummy" .......

such a tear-jerker right... really dun understand why all korean shows must be soooooo sad one.... then always will have someone in the show who will get cance one...... why can't there be more happy endings?

aiya...... now need to clear up my stuff..... then also need to read newspaper articles for tomorrow's tutorial.... so see ya ard..... dun miss me ar!!!! hehe!!!!

2005-11-08T19:42:00.000+08:00

school has started !~!~!~!~

lol.... i crazy right...... its g8 to see all mi friends in school again..... can have fun again..... this sem mi timetable is quite relaxed..... a few hours of school a day...... then i got colour and composition for my CDS..... and i am in the same class as Geraldine!~!~!~!~hehe.... quite lucky hor......

Karin was supposed to take calculus but decided to change it to e-business..... so she is now in my class lor....... YEAH!~!~!~too bad not same group la...... but nevermind..... can still have a lot of fun together.... (",)

i just went to cut my hair at parkway..... well, not really cut la..... the stylist really help me thin my hair and layered it...... when i walked off, i saw so much of my hair on the floor..... a bit scary lor..... so much thick, black hair on the floor...... *shivers* now my hair so thin..... if only it stays this way longer......

the only thing bad about this sem is that is so freaking short..... approx. 4 months only...... so a lot of the deadlines for projects are very close by..... next week got about 3 things to submit lor..... then still got portfolio haven't do....... *argh*

now, must start to do some research.... after doing SIP, i totally forgot the format of doing a proposal/report..... so must refresh my memory..... hehe.... cya ard.....

2005-10-25T19:38:00.000+08:00

in just 3 more days, 3 more days..... my entire attachment will come to an end.....

and i would have to say good-bye to:

all the ppl at SATS
all the ppl at GE
SSS ppl as well
krischeck
BCDs
boarding passes
electronic tickets
paper tickets (the red ones as well as the hard ones)
all the immigration cards
loadsheet
li/lc
shipbag
tags (limited release, special delivery and conditional exceptance)
walkie talkies
the bright "new" airport
free internet
free telephone calls
and many many more.....

almost all who know us (poly attachment ppl) keep asking us when we are ending our attachment..... all of them say we are leaving so fast..... and ya.... in a blink of an eye, our 23 weeks of attachment is about to be over...... so fast right..... i also can't believe it..... i can still remember my first flight was to manado, my first ticket down flight was to bangkok..... *argh*

left with 3 working days.... all starting at 7.30am......

2005-10-19T22:07:00.000+08:00

the dates to macau is set on the 22nd to the 26th of nov...... but still dunno the itinerary and how are we getting there..... price also not set yet..... hopefully it will be lesser.....

i am so addicted to da chang jin...... i actually watched so many episodes today..... i just want to find out more and see how the story ends up...... so nice.....

well..... SIP is ending so soon...... 10 more days but will be left with 8 working days..... so fast right..... dunno whether happy a not..... ppl always asking how am i feeling...... SIP going to end le..... i am happy tt SIP is over.... one step closer to graduating, will be able to go back to sch with frens..... but on the other hand, i had so much fun here at SATS.... everyone is so nice..... i have learnt so much..... seen so many things.....

need to sleep le..... will be working 6.30 to 4.30 for 4 days le...... need to sleep liao... if not would not be able to wake up..... dun wanna end my SIP with a bad note.........

night everyone.... (",)

2005-10-16T20:31:00.000+08:00

i have something to say...... i have finally touched a cat today!!!!!!!

lol..... seems like i am crazy right..... but well.... i am actually very scared of cats..... reason being tt a cat jumped onto me when i was very very young..... so up till now, i am still scared of them..... its ok if they are a distance away from me.... but once they come near by and "stare" at me..... i will start to freak out....... the cat i touched just now is very friendly..... while it was busy eating.... i "tou tou" touch it...... it felt very soft and much more fragile as compared to my silly dog......

have been watching "da chang jin" last few days..... very nice.... actually i thought it would be very boring..... however, it is very nice..... if you start watching the show from the beginning, you will gradually understand and like it.... now everyone at home is addicted to it... and i mean addicted.... faye actually watched the show all the way till morning...... when i need to go go work..... and i am officially 3 discs behind everyone...... nvm..... i am having 2 days off on tues n wed..... so i can continue watching....... hehehehehehehe....

my host father fr india actually sms-ed me this afternoon.... it has been a long time since i heard fr all of them.... i am really happy that i had them as my host family when i was in india...... i learnt so much.... i have come to love the indian culture.... i love indian food..... the sms really brought back lovely memories..... me in india for abt a month.... travelling on the trains..... it is not as bad as it seems..... eating kulfi..... learning how to write my name in hindi..... eating yummy chapathi..... as well as smashed rice and popped rice...... *yummy yummy* i really hope tt i can go back to india one more time...... tt will be so cool...

SIP ends in 13 days....

2005-10-14T19:46:00.000+08:00

i really got nothing to do.... so i tried some quizes.....

You Are Japanese Food

Strange yet delicious.Contrary to popular belief, you're not always eaten raw.

What Kind of Food Are You?

Your Birthdate: April 4

Being born on the 4th day of the month should help make you a better manager and organizer. You may be more responsible and self-disciplined than you realize. Sincere and honest, you are a serious and hard working individual.
Your feelings are likely to seem somewhat repressed at times. The number 4 has something of an inhibiting effect on your ability to show and express affections, as feeling are very closely regulated and controlled. You are apt to be much more practical, rational, and conscious of details. There is a good deal of rigidity and stubbornness associated with the number 4.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Hair Should Be Orange

Expressive, deep, and one of a kind.You pull off "weird" well - hardly anyone notices.

What's" Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

You Are 0% Boyish and 100% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine.You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you.A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down.But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Your Japanese Name Is...

Kata Washio

What's" your Japanese Name?

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people.You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together.Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly.People crave your praise and complements.

What's" Your Hidden Talent?

Your Power Color Is Teal

At Your Highest:
You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future.
At Your Lowest:
You feel in a slump and lack creativity.
In Love:
You tend to be many people's ideal partner.
How You're Attractive:
You make people feel confident and accepted.
Your Eternal Question:
"What Impression Am I Giving?"

What's" Your Power Color?

Your Mood Ring is Blue

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Mood Ring Generator

sorry for the number of quizzes..... mi a bit too bored la.... so trying out the various quizzes......

2005-10-14T17:45:00.000+08:00

finally scanned the pics i took with geraldine 1 month ago.... so decided to post some of my favourites...... actually wanted to post some pics of work place one..... but a bit scared la.... so decided against it.......

forever jie mei.......

2005-10-14T17:41:00.000+08:00

looks like we are in garden hor.... with butterflies n the flowers

2005-10-14T17:37:00.000+08:00

we are "graduating" soon from SATS.... lol...

2005-10-14T17:35:00.000+08:00

me and geraldine..... *bling bling* like stars like tt hor... lol

2005-10-14T16:09:00.000+08:00

got this quiz fr faye's blog.....

__FIRSTS__
First best friend:
Amanda.... since kindergarden.....

First screen name:
dun haf leh.....

First pets:
i think it was some guppies......

First piercing:
ears.... when i was v young..... cried after tt.... but in the end got ice cream.... lol...

First instrument:
recorder counted?

__LASTS__
Last car ride:
taxi counted a not? if not, then it's a lift to work by thilaga n her sister......

Last kiss:
er.... kissed my dog..... lol....

Last good cry:
really dun remember..... seems like a long long time since i cried......

Last library book checked out :
shd be a book regarding airlines for mi project..... ard feb or march....

Last movie seen :
can dun answer a not?? v long nvr go cinema......

Last drank:
home cooked sugar cane drink..

Last food consumed:
banana cake...

Last crush:
dun haf..

Last phone call:
frm mi elder sis.....

Last time showered:
yesterday....

Last shoes worn:
black sandals with a little heels....

Last cd played:
fan wei qi's yi bi yi.....

Last item bought:
shoes fr charles n keith....

Last annoyance:
my dog barking very loudly......

Last disappointment:
in myself......

Last shirt worn:
giodarno white t.....

Last website visited?:
faye's blog to copy this quiz......

Last word you said:
doing.....

Last song you sang:
mienai tsubasa..... parts of it la..... lol.....

What color socks are you wearing? :
none......

What's under your bed? :
dust n the boogey man....

What time did you wake up today?:
ard 12 plus.... v late right.......

__FUTURE__
Where do you want to go? :
wa.... i want to go to so many places..... but top of the list is JAPAN!!!!!!!

What is your career going to be?:
haven't decided...... but it will definitely in the service industry.....

Where are you going to live? :
small zen house.....*dreaming*

How many kids do you want? :
2 will be just nice.....

What kind of car(s):
small, cute one can le....

__CURRENT__
Current mood:
cheerful....

Current music:
after the rain by sweets....

Current taste:
??

Current hair:
messy..... in a ponytail....

Current clothes:
blue roxy shorts n purple top....

Current book:
wish upon a star by olivia goldsmith.....

Current color of toenails:
nothing......

__UNIQUE__
Nervous Habits:
hands turn very cold......

Are you double jointed? :
??

Roll your tongue? :
oh ya.....

Can you raise one eyebrow at a time? :
yup.....

Can you blow spit bubble? :
oh no.....

Can you cross your eyes? :
yup yup....

Tattoos? :
nope..... looks painful.....

Piercings and where? :
my ears lo.....

Do you make your bed daily? :
er..... sometimes la.... see whether got time a not.... lol.....

2005-10-13T23:32:00.000+08:00

the only times u see me blog so much is when......

i am enjoying my off or rest day from SIP
i am so free at work tt i actually have time to use the net
something happened at work tt i want to share
i really have nothing to do.....

geraldine sms-ed me in the afternoon.... well jenny, geraldine and i intend to go cut our hair together on the 29th..... then geraldine went to find out the prices at some salons..... since all 3 of us have very very thick and curly hair..... she also went to check out the prices of rebonding as well..... she "proposed" 2 salons.... one at wisma and another at far east.... well, the wisma is a jap salon and she heard tt it is very good..... but the prices are steep.... 200 over for rebonding exclu. haircut..... well.... quality=high price ma...... then the far east one is 100 + with haircut n treatment..... but not sure whether is good a not..... *sigh* to rebond or not to rebond?????

tomorrow, i intend to go out..... i hope i will be able to get a pair of white shoes *dreaming*.... saw it last time when i went out with my mum and younger sis..... can't get it out of my head....... and i also never see it elsewhere..... maybe i will see another one there as well.... alamak..... my pocket going to have a big hole le....... lol..... but anyway, payday will be coming soon.... hehehehehehe......

oh ya.... u guys got watch stairway to heaven a not???? i finally managed to catch a few episodes of it..... i just lurve it!!!!!! any of u have it?? can lend to me a not?? the lead actor sooooo cute!!!!! i actually went online yesterday to find out more abt the show..... apparently it has a very very very sad ending..... even so.... i still want to watch it... after all..... i lurve love stories....... so if any of u have it, must tell me ok!?!

speaking of the 21st, i wish my friend all the best for the overseas training the person will be going through soon..... just jia you ok.....

for the record..... SIP ends in 16 days!!!!! (well 15 days for me!!!!!!)

2005-10-12T22:50:00.000+08:00

oh my god!!!!!!! guess who i saw yesterday?!?!?!? i saw.....

MICHAEL BUBLE!!!!!!!!!!!

okok.... i know i am getting a bit crazy, but he is so far the biggest star i have contact with while working..... the only ppl i saw were zhu mimi and hossan leong.... spotted denise keller once though..... well here's what happened......

i was just doing my duty as per normal, checking passports and boarding passes to make sure tt the name tallies..... one thing i noticed for tt particular flight was tt there were a lot of ppl carrying various instruments..... i wanted to ask them whether they were a band or what.... but decided not to be a kay-po.... so i just kept quiet.... then there was this passenger.... wearing shades and a hat..... so in my head i was wondering how come this passenger is wearing shades.... (he is so far the only one i have seen wearing shades....) so i just asked him for his passport and boarding pass..... i checked his name against his passport.... as i looked at his name, i glanced at his photo and found it very familiar..... it was then tt i realised tt it was him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he is very nice....... apparently he just finished his concert the day b4...... shd have went la...... i really like his songs....... his voice is just so nice..... so soothing...... if my bf were to be able to sing like him...... i will stick to him like glue man....... lol...... my standard not so high la.... can sing in tune can already la..... hehehhehe......

today no luck with stars though..... but i managed to do sq 12 twice le..... it goes to LA via tokyo..... finally i got a flight tt has a lot of ppl going to Tokyo......unlike sq 996 that now goes to bangkok before proceeding to Tokyo.... and the number of ppl going to Tokyo would usually be like 20+ ... sq 12 was at E5 today (the newest gate in t2 so far.... they are now renovating F42.....) they have placed a BP holder le but still no ticket sorter...... just when are they going to put one there?????

went shopping with my mummy just now...... it has been quite a while since i went out with her..... went to eat fishball noodles fr mi fav stall..... my sisters and i always eat fr tt stall after we see the doc at the polyclinic when we were younger...... the taste just never changes..... so good..... sooo delicious....... i also had a bad craving for ice cream....... so we went to scoopz...... was actually served by Siok.... my HTM junior and also faye's sec sch friend.... also dunno whether she remember me a not..... but the 2 scoops of ice cream (rum raisin and jackfruit) were bigger than i expected...... i also finally managed to get a nice pair of shoes fr charles and keith...... it is so sweet and cute........ can't wait to wear it.......

well i will be off tomorrow as well as on fri...... finally i can get some rest and catch up on some beauty sleep....... my pimples just do not want to go away..........

2005-10-10T00:05:00.000+08:00

it has been a long long time..... the last time i posted an entry, it was september..... now is already october le.....

like my new blog?? haha.... i finally decided to change it...... it's sweet right..... got it from blog skins but did some minor changes to it...... but it took me quite a while though..... i really wonder how ppl do it.... designing an entire layout..... really amazing..... pei fu pei fu... *kow towing*

anyway,i am now going back into the morning shift le.... going to start work in about 6 1/2 hours time..... time really flies..... SIP will be ending very very soon..... official date is 29th oct..... but i will be the first to end my internship (among the 6 of us) coz on the 29th, i am actually off...... so that leaves me with 18 more days to go....

really dunno whether to feel happy or sad.... i am kinda caught in between..... happy that i managed to survive SIP and i can go back to school and be with my friends..... but sad cause the ppl at SATS are great and the entire experience is so fun and rewarding......

anyway, i have opted to go to macau for my overseas edu trip..... coz dubai si too ex.... (2200 for 5D3N)... bali is out now becoz of the bomb...... i am so excited...... dun worry PS, i will definitely buy things for u one...... u r my "daughter" wad..... lol....